All or None

All or None.

I don't want to lose this
I've already lost so much
But everything is going against my wishes
I can feel it slipping
It's sliding through my fingers
Along with my senses
My body's shutting down
My heart's going numb
It's forcing all that I'm feeling out
Because it's tired of beating as hard as it can
And then being ripped out by people it cares about
So it's forcing everything that makes it hurt away
Along with all the good and happy things
That keep emptiness at bay
In order of defending itself
My body's forcing out my soul
Out of mind, out of body,
I see myself dying
And I'm terrified because I have no control
I'm panicking and I want to take it back
But it's too late
I'm already gone
I see myself empty now
My eyes have no life in them
As they stare down at the blank sheet of paper
Pen in hand
Tears run down my face and I want to take it back
Give me my feeling back!
I'll take the grief
I'll take the sorrow and my defeat
Just give me back my passion!
I want to care again!
Take away my numbness
I don't want it anymore!
I'll take the pain
Give me anything, just leave me sane!
But it's of no use
Because when I wished away my pain
I wished away all feeling
Because it's all or none
It's always everything or nothing at all.

Because it's tired of beating as hard as it can

I liked this line .

And then being ripped out by people it cares about

Awkwardly long , and weird word choice . I didn't like the way it sounded . " And then being torn apart by those it beat for . " ? Or maybe you can make it two separate lines .

That keep emptiness at bay

I'm all for rhyming poems , but that was a terrible rhyme .

In order of defending itself

" In order to defend itself "

I don't want it anymore!

This was a weak line . " I can't take this anymore ! "

Because when I wished away my pain

You used pain a few lines up . " Because when I wished away the hurt , "

Because it's all or none

It's always everything or nothing at all.

That was a terrible ending line . Too many syllables , which doesn't match the rest of the poem . Something liiike ... " Because it's all of them
Or none at all .
There can't be heaven
If there ain't hell . "
Haha but that's just me trying to write poetry ! XD

It was good , I'm sure if you keep writing you'll be incredible . (: