1st Of July
Bailey seemed so much calmer in the new veterinary today. Maybe he could sense how I felt. Dogs can do that, you know. Sense how their owner is feeling. It’s pretty cool actually, knowing what is wrong with somebody you are close too. Okay, maybe he doesn’t actually know what is going through my mind but he can pick up on my feelings, I’m confident of it.
3rd Of July
Hottest day in July. I’m not even kidding. I woke up, and the blaring sun was beating through the curtains. I opened them and I was practically blinded by it. I was way too hot to eat so I got outside in my vest top and shorts and started filling up the swimming pool. Yes, we have a pool. It’s in an octagon shape and was covered up in plastic since we moved into the house. I was excited to use the hose for the first time to fill it up but Bailey started attacking the water, barking at it and nibbling at the emerald green pipe.
By lunch time, it was 38 degrees. Poor Bailey was panting trying to find a cool place to lie and the twins were even hot, they were kicking like mad.
David went out into the swimming pool after lunch and I started sunbathing. Nothing better than lying out in the sun getting a lush tan while drinking ice cold Coca Cola. By two ‘o clock it was 40 degrees, no sign of any clouds in the clear blue sky and the pool was literally steaming from the sun beaming down onto it.
I had a nice nap on the sofa before I went to walk Bailey. I came back and found I had a lovely tan coming on. I’ll work on it more tomorrow.
4th Of July
It’s still so hot. I feel like I’m going to die of dehydration. Me and David have ready made twenty-four cups of ice cold water if we need it. And it looks as if we do.
The twins seem to be moving around a lot less now and more kicking. I think maybe because they’re nearly fully grown and can’t even move. My midwife says when it’s near to the end of the month they got to check my weight, blood pressure, urine (gross, I know) and varicose veins. I haven’t got a clue what they are. Then she’s got to check the foetal heartbeat, size and position.
I’m just so glad that the long wait is nearly over.
Dad called, wanted to know if he could come and see me, he had something to tell us. I have a pretty good idea on what it’s going to be about: he’s going to tell me I made this whole thing happen and I cannot turn back now and if I change my mind then tough. I know I won’t change my mind because I love my boys already, and I don’t even realize what they will look like.
“Look, Dad, I can understand why you would tell me this rubbish but I don’t want to go back. I’m looking to the future, now.” I believed, making it pretty clear what my point is.
“What are you on about, Jess? We aren’t here to tell you what we expect in you, we’re here to tell you we are going to adopt,” Dad chuckled, holding Susan close to him. Adopt? Seriously? Your going to ADOPT?
“Whoa,” David mumbled from behind me.
I didn’t know what to say. I mean, Dad is forty-three for crying out loud and Susan isn’t much younger. In fact, she’s three years older than him. What’s the point?
“I can understand this is a shocking moment for you, but because we are not able to have children, adopting is another option,” Susan giggled. She really needs to grow up if she wants a kid.
“Adopting? Dad, after I was born, you hated the idea of more children. So why are you so keen to adopt for?” I growled, sitting down.
“No, I hated the idea of you as a child. Adopting is a great choice for us, as we cannot have kids anymore,” he looked at Susan with narrowed eyes, she hung her head low, but I knew they were both joking.
“I don’t like the idea, but…… I haven’t got a choice, have I?” Dad and Susan shook their heads.
“We have an interview tomorrow with eight-year-old Julie. This is an exciting time for us,” Susan announced. Big deal, why would I care? I never see my Dad anyway so why should I be bouncing off the walls in excitement?
“Well. Dad, too be certain, I don’t care what you do, I have my two sons to focus on,” I replied, with a tear in my eye. Does this mean I’m not Dad’s number one daughter anymore?
6th Of July
I told David this and he accused me of being jealous. I am no way jealous, just a little bit left out, that’s all.
He told me to talk to Dad about this so I walked Bailey down to Dad’s and had a chat with him. Bailey chewed up one leg of the coffee table but hopefully Dad hasn’t noticed yet.
“I feel that, maybe, because you were accepted for the adoption, you won’t love me anymore. I mean, you might think I’m old enough to look after myself but I still need my Dad,” I complained. I sounded like a six-year-old, I know.
“Oh, sweetheart. Just because we are having someone new join the family doesn’t mean that I’m just going to dump you. Yes, you’re old enough to look after yourself. You are engaged and having twins, so you don’t need an old man guide you through life,” he answered.
I laughed. “It’s just… Nobody seems to want me, it’s like my annoying sense of humour is a trait that people despise,”
“Hey, nobody despises you, maybe you mother is a little mad but she’ll get over it. Anyway, when she sees your boys she’ll think how lucky you are. So don’t worry about it.” he paused. “And I still want you,”
A smile spreads across my face and I feel happy again.
I was wrong, Dad did notice Bailey chewing the coffee table leg.
“Jessica! What did I tell you about keeping your things under control? It’s no wonder you look so scruffy with this dog chewing everything in sight!”
Dad’s back. It’s the Dad I liked all along.
7th Of July
Mum changes her tune so quickly throughout the year. Usually, in the beginning of January, she’s so happy, looking forward to the year ahead. Then, mid January she gets a bit unhappier and in February she can get very teasy. March is the time where she’s okay I suppose, sometimes and in April, June and July is the worst time. As you have seen.
Anyway, what brought me to pop this up is how Mum likes to stir up trouble. For instance, she got in an argument with David’s boss yesterday saying how she would kill for a job there, even though she already has a job at Sainsburys and how she comes storming around my place, complaining at the state. So today I did a bit of summer cleaning, it’s very spick and span if you ask me.
10th Of July
I’ve been getting horrible backache, like serious cramps and the boys aren’t kicking anymore, they’re squirming. It’s a really bad sensation it feels like jelly in there. And if I stay really still, you can see them move around. It’s actually really funny.
One more month to go! I’m so nervous and excited, I’ve skipped the eighth month in my pregnancy book and read the birth part. It seems so scary, especially when you have two in you.
What I want to know is how your stomach doesn’t blow up when your pregnant. I mean, you must have to have super stretchy skin to have babies. I know one woman who had eight kids all at once! She must have had mega stretchy skin to hold eight babies weighing two pounds each.
11th Of July
There’s never nothing interesting on television on Monday’s. Apart from repeats of Come Dine With Me and Scrubs there’s nothing else on. David rented out this horror movie where this girl is friend with this boy and she falls in love with him but it turns out he has some weird power to murder people using his eyes. It’s really gory and I’m not going into much detail as it made me feel sick near to the end. Even Bailey got a bit scared, he started barking at the tv screen. I went to bed straight after ‘cause I would have puked else.
I had nightmares that the twins were eating my insides. But I probably wouldn’t taste so nice so I know it wasn’t true.
12th Of July
David’s birthday is on the twenty-fourth so I want it to be extra special for him. His dad came over while he was at work and said there’s a club down the road that his mate owns and he can hire it for free. Ian (Dave’s father) called the guy and it’s hired for eight thirty. We then agreed he and Jane (David’s mom. You met her a couple months ago) would be in charge of the decorations and buffet and I’d be in charge of cake. Considering I’m trying to think up the perfect present for him, Ian thought it was for the best that I had little to do.
15th Of July
I got it! I have the greatest idea for David’s birthday present! It took a while to think of it, but I got there, all thanks to my twins. Basically, I was flipping through the Argos catalogue; the boys were kicking a tad and when I turned to the game consoles page, they started going nuts! So I knew that the Nintendo Wii is perfect for what he is into.
I’ve ordered it online and it should be coming in two days time. In the meantime, I decided to walk Bailey to Game, and bought three Wii games that I saw David looking at over the past few weeks. I cannot wait to see his face when he opens the present.
Geez, I’ve just realised, I’ve spent over two-hundred pounds this month alone.
16th Of July
Bearing in mind that we have nothing else to do apart from walk Bailey around the block, me and Dave chose to start packing the hospital bag when the time comes. We didn’t have a clue what to pack, and that I’m not talking to Mum, we consulted Jane. Some help she was, this is what she said:
“I knew you kids were going to ask me this eventually, you know, when I was your age, I never even thought about packing. I mean, you guys are still young - still with it. You know? I can’t remember packing for Davey Boy, I think we just threw some stuff together and made do. You see, I think you should-.” I don’t want to cause anymore pain for you. And myself, come to think of it. She just went on and on and eventually, we just hung up.
Now what are we going to do?
19th Of July
I know exactly what we’re going to do. Ask Bex. How dumb am I? One of my best friends, who has actually given birth to twin boys, like what I’m about to go through, and I couldn’t think for one moment that she will know what to do? Stupid, stupid, stupid.
So I asked her and she told me simply what I should pack. So easy.
“Okay, so you need your dressing gown, socks, maybe slippers, lip balm, massage oil, energy snacks and drinks, books or magazines and toiletries. You got that?”
“Er…” I murmured. “Yes, I think so.”
We need to do some shopping.
21st Of July
Who knew you need so much stuff to pack in your hospital bag? I need stuff like bra pads for afterwards too. I mean, what is up with that?!
I am so not ready for this. David isn’t neither, he’s just looked up on the internet what the babies need as well, he started panicking but we have everything but it was funny to watch him fear. Okay, maybe that’s a bit harsh. Fine, it’s a lot harsh, he’s just so sweet though.
Result! The Nintendo Wii has came, wrapped up and totally hidden. He will never suspect a thing.
Dropping hints is not such a good idea when you want somebody to not know about the amazing birthday present you bought for them. He knows now, all I said was it’s a white box and you can play Just Dance and rhymes with pee. It just sort of came out, it was obviously an accident but I couldn’t help myself.
24th Of July
I was so nervous when I turned up at the night club. Tons of people were there: friends, family and even the milk man that David gets along with. The dance floor was covered in silver and white balloons with the words 20 today printed on them. On one side of the room was a giant table full of food and the birthday cake in the middle. I chose a three layered Victoria sponge cake because I knew David loves them.
We waited for him to come in, Ian was guiding him forward, holding his hands over his eyes (David’s eyes, not Ian’s) and we all shouting surprise! He was surprised, he loved it. The minute he was released from his father he automatically came frolicking over to me and gave me a great big snog. I loved it.
The party was fab. Bex was drinking and Adam couldn’t control her, she ended up in the men’s toilets four times. I danced until twelve and David collapsed onto another girl so we both went home after. He was drunk, by the way.
26th Of July
David was hungover from his party which was pretty annoying because I wanted to go to the antenatal classes. I was advised by my midwife to go, but then I had to ring up again and ask if I could go tomorrow. She filled me in, but she didn’t seem to happy with that. I’m not sure why, I’m a perfectly nice young lady and so is David. Except he’s a man, not a lady.
30th Of July
The antenatal class went really well. They shown how to breath when in labour and different moving techniques and stuff. The only downside to that is it looks really painful. And I mean, really painful. The lady running it shown four different woman give birth (on a video, obviously) and let me tell you, I wouldn’t recommend it.
I had to have my weight and blood pressure and the babies position and everything else checked today. It was weird, but she said I’m fit and healthy and so are the twins. One of the boys is facing bottom down so afterwards I went swimming. Two hours of swimming to get my son to face it’s face down. When I came out my toes were all shrivelled up like one of those prunes.
31st Of July
Yes! Both boys are face down now, which is incredibly good. Oh my gosh. I only have, like, nine or ten days until I’m due. My tummy keeps bubbling whenever I look at the calendar. David is telling all his mates that he’s soon to be a daddy. It’s so charming that he’s just as eager and anxious as me.
Oh my God. I’m gonna have a baby. Two, as a matter of a fact. Oh, wait, you already know that.
I’m gonna be a mum!
