I lingered in the darkness tonight, I kept falling, I kept myself in the unknown. In the emptiness of my shut eyes I focus on my hands, they tingle, this is the fur growing, then the bones grow and contort into paws. Now my arms and legs, the pain that occurs in shifting is just about the only emotion that runs through you in the darkness of your mind. I direct my thoughts to a complete wolf body, but still keeping human mindset. If I went full wolf I could be lost forever in myself, possibly never being able to shift back.
I could feel my wolf take over my cells, I was complete wolf now, I still was in the black when I took a deep breath. I could smell the pine, almost taste the wild berries, every animal, every tree placed out in front of me like my own sonar waves. Now I open my eyes.
The smells matched the woods, in perfect clarity i see the forest like no camera no human eye can see. My eyes see greater then my human ones, every crease in the bark and every dust particle in the air my perfect eyes can see. I took another breath, I can smell fish, and hear running water. The stream, is active today.
I took one step forward letting my paw dig into the earth, then I broke out into an unearthly sprint. Every tree in detail as I pass it, I can smell the fresh water, I can hear the ripples braking like waves.
The creak is in sight and I head to its shores, I skidded to a halt on the withered flattened rocks and pondered the alive stream. The fish swam so gracefully through the weeds in the clear fresh stream, these eyes are a fishers dream. I can see the algae the smaller fish nibble on, and I can see the terror in these fish as they are casually devoured by there graceful giant cousins, as they live their lives in nature.
I think it's safe to say I am apart of nature, but apart of the world as well. That's my gift and my curse, real life plagues me, its a disease that has no cure.
The sun is setting and the night breeze is breaking the calm flow of the stream. I inhale once more, Lilly flowers are blossoming, and I exhale quickly. My heavy breath sends ripples against the flow of the water. I dig my paws into the rocks and start to proudly stride home, the day is nearly finished and tomorrow, school awaits me
