Damn Regret- Chapter 1 (Part one)

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Damn Regret

Chapter One:

The edges of my shoes touched the small crack in the sidewalk. This small, insignificant imperfection in the ground was all that separated me, from a brand new hell. I raised and lowered my toes, hearing my beat up old converse rub against each other. The sound of it seemed to calm me, as if the familiarity of them could make this all better.

I looked up, pushing my hair back from my face as I did so. Chunks of it fell back over my eyes, as it had been cut in a weird style I wasn’t sure I liked. Through the one uncovered eye I could see the large white building, square and plain in every way. It was nothing like my old school, where there were pillars and carvings in the front, and the windows were classic and unbarred. Where the students could sit in the un-gated front yard, surrounded by trees, and not have any confrontation. Here an old chin-link fence surrounded everything, and the only entrances were marked with tall black metal detectors and a security guard wearing a bright yellow jacket.

“Who are you?” The security guard I happened to be standing in front of asked, his voice full of contempt and obvious hatred of his job. I held out my new shiny student ID card to him, remembering that the picture was terrible too late to take it back.

“You’re late,” he growled, handing my card back. It fumbled through my fingers and landed on the wet ground. As I bent down to pick it up, the knee of my jeans soaked through with the morning rain and mud.

“Shit,” I said, trying to brush it off with my hand.

“Excuse me.” I looked up, and the guard was staring at me with a pissed off expression as he reached into one of the pockets of his jacket. I blushed and tucked the ID back in my pocket.

“Tomorrow after school,” he said, writing something down on a slip of yellow paper. I was sensing a theme. “In the cafeteria, one hour.”

“For what?” I asked.

“Breaking the code of conduct.” He handed me the slip, the metal detectors beeping as his watch passed through them.

“What did I do wrong?” I asked, slightly pissed, but mostly confused.

“One, for improper language-”

“Please, like you’ve never said it!” I reached out to hand the slip back, but he didn’t take it.

“Are you arguing with me?” He asked, stupefied.

“No,” I said. “Simply disagreeing.”

“Don’t be a smartass.” He was obviously pissed off now, eyes blazing with rage, and sure to start spitting fire along with his saliva soon.

“So we can ass, but not shit?” At this point, I knew that I was just doing it to agitate him, but I never was one for getting in trouble for something that wasn’t my fault. Why is it that they always have ‘no smoking’ signs, but never any ’no cussing’ ones?

“Do you want a referral?”

“What does that have to do with anything?” I was pretty sure that a referral was sending somebody somewhere, like a recommendation or something of that matter.

“Come with me.” The security guard grabbed me by the arm and dragged me along behind him until we went through the thick glass doors marked as the entrance.

“This has to be against some kind of code of your freaking contact,” I said, struggling with my arm. “Let me go!” I twisted out of his grip and rubbed my reddened wrist.

He reached out again, and I took a step back.

“Watch yourself,” I said. I held my arm out so he could see the growing red spot where he had been holding. “This won’t look good to your boss.”

His eyes widened, and I saw years of a stable job and fears of losing it pass through his eyes. Deep down inside I knew that I would not get him fired, it just wasn’t in my view of justice.

I sighed, and knew that he was play-dough in my hands, if only I was a tad bit creative. “Don’t worry, I’ll follow you. I just wanted my dignity back.”

“I’m sorry,” he mumbled. Obviously saying sorry to a student was harder for him than I would have thought. He kept his eyes to the tile, and shuffled his feet.

“Can we just go? I’m late, remember.”

He started walking, but before we reached the corner, spun full towards me. I gasped, and jumped nearly a foot in the air as he towered over me by nearly a foot.

“I have an idea,” he announced.

“Try not scaring the shit out of me next time.” I caught my breath and took a step back so I wouldn’t screw up my neck looking at him. He smiled apologetically.

“How about, I tear up the referral, take you to class, and we pretend that this never happened.” He pointed to the fading spot on my wrist.

I felt like saying no, just take me to the god dammed king of the school and leave me alone. I was tired of this confusing charade. Faculty was supposed to respect the students, and in return the students respected the faculty. Nobody was dragged up stairs into a building for saying shit. Then there was the whole sensitive side to the big bad wolf, which seemed to stump me the most.

I looked around the starch white walls and clean cut corners, longed for the smell of cheap cleanser and the comfort of home. Finally I looked back at the guard, who was watching me with a hopeful expression.
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:roll: Because I have long chapters in this, I'm posting it in peices, or scenes, just so I actually get critiques. This is what happened one day when I realized that I shouldn't write Evil Angel because I think I should. I should write what I want to write. :)

I hope you like it ;P
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1. What do you think so far? Is it moving along? Are you bored?
2. What about the characters so far?
3. I've never had to change schools, for those of you that have, did I capture the emotion? For those that haven't, is it believable?

Thank you!
-JC
But that is not the question. Why we are here, that is the question. And we are blessed in this, that we happen to know the answer. Yes, in this immense confusion one thing alone is clear. We are waiting for Godot to come. -Beckett




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I do like it. When I actually crawl out of my happy place in the Poetry forums to critique fiction, it means I either like it or hate it so much I have to comment. This, luckily, falls under the former.

Critique Questions:
1. What do you think so far? Is it moving along? Are you bored?
2. What about the characters so far?
3. I've never had to change schools, for those of you that have, did I capture the emotion? For those that haven't, is it believable?

First I'll respond to these, I guess.
1. It's moving along at a decent pace. I didn't find myself getting bored, as it's a good length for what's happened so far. Sometimes it gets a little fluffy, which I'll address later.
2. Characters good. The security guard is rough around the edges:
I felt like saying no, just take me to the god dammed king of the school and leave me alone. I was tired of this confusing charade. Faculty was supposed to respect the students, and in return the students respected the faculty. Nobody was dragged up stairs into a building for saying shit. Then there was the whole sensitive side to the big bad wolf, which seemed to stump me the most.
In this paragraph your narrator speculates at the nature of the guard's personality, which seemed out-of-place and unnecessary, especially the last part about his sensitive side. If your narrator is confused, we should be able to gather that from something else, not from a whole paragraph.
3. I changed schools once, when I moved and entered a new school in fifth grade. I'm afraid I won't be very helpful there, as I wasn't walking around swearing at people when I was ten (when I was eight, now there's a different story).

This small, insignificant imperfection in the ground was all that separated me, from a brand new hell.
First, the comma after "me" is incorrect and should be deleted. Perhaps this is just a typo, as you don't seem to do this a lot. I'd nix "insignificant" in the first part of the sentence. I don't see why it's necessary, and it's almost contradictory because the crack is significant--the narrator sees it as a separation.
beat up old converse
Wearing beat-up Converse seems like the most ridiculously cliched thing for a halfway-rebellious (and I'm guessing artsy) teenage narrator.
Through the one uncovered eye I could see the large white building, square and plain in every way. It was nothing like my old school, where there were pillars and carvings in the front, and the windows were classic and unbarred. Where the students could sit in the un-gated front yard, surrounded by trees, and not have any confrontation. Here an old chin-link fence surrounded everything, and the only entrances were marked with tall black metal detectors and a security guard wearing a bright yellow jacket.
Lalala, lots of description. Cut this in half.
I held out my new shiny student ID card to him, remembering that the picture was terrible too late to take it back.
Awkward phrasing in the end there. Either just cut out the babble about the bad picture or rephrase:
I held out my new student ID card, remembering too late that the picture was terrible.
a pissed off expression
...
slightly pissed,
...
obviously pissed off now
Once is enough.
“This has to be against some kind of code of your freaking contact,” I said
Did you mean 'contract'?
His eyes widened, and I saw years of a stable job and fears of losing it pass through his eyes.
I think we could probably gather the equivalent from "His eyes widened."
jumped nearly a foot in the air as he towered over me by nearly a foot.
Foot + foot = no.

Good stuff so far! It's definitely believable, though I relate because I've gotten in trouble for talking back to teachers, not to security guards.
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Wearing beat-up Converse seems like the most ridiculously cliched thing for a halfway-rebellious (and I'm guessing artsy) teenage narrator.

Personally, converse are the only shoes I wear. I think they're amazing, and I'll probably never replace them. As a result, guess what shoes my characters normally wear? It's not cliche, for a lot of people, it's just comfort. After all, I've never owned more than five pairs of shoes at one time, and that's because I don't care how they look, just how well they work. Anyways...I'm rambling, I'm sure you got the pint in the first sentence.

Well, thank you Cade. I'll add your suggestions, they make sense so...yeah.

Thanks!
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Yay! More JC. Hah, sorry, I'm bored.

1. What do you think so far? Is it moving along? Are you bored?
2. What about the characters so far?
3. I've never had to change schools, for those of you that have, did I capture the emotion? For those that haven't, is it believable?


1. Don't really know what;s going on yet. I'm a little bored, but I'm sure once the plot really stars developing it'll be different.
2. Not so fond of the girl. She's a little too weak for me, a little bit too much like me.
3. Yes, I changed schools this year. For some people it asy, for others, it's a little harder. For me, it's a little harder. I think I need to read a bit more before I can really comment on how believable it was.

“This has to be against some kind of code of your freaking contact,”


This is really the only thing I need to comment on that I found. I was a bit confused as contact, I think you meant conduct, although I'd probably re-write the sentence as:

"This has to be against some rule in freaking code of conduct"

or

"This has to be against some rule is code of freaking conduct"

(The first one sounds better to me, though)

Interested in knowing what's going to happen, please PM me when you post the next part!

-choco.
*Don't expect to see me around much in the next couple of weeks. School has started again, and it'll be a couple of weeks before I've settled in. If you've asked me for a critique, you will get it, but not for a little while. Sorry*




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1. What do you think so far? Is it moving along? Are you bored?
2. What about the characters so far?
3. I've never had to change schools, for those of you that have, did I capture the emotion? For those that haven't, is it believable?


1. I like it; it seems like it is going to be very interesting. The title is very catchy, and your style is nice. I can't say that I'm bored; no, I'm definitely
not.

2.One thing, normally, if you are going to be vague in the first part of a story, it is in a prologue. Now, I'm not objecting to this chapter, because it is very well written, and I like it a lot. However, a name--the girl's or the security guard's (maybe she spots it on a badge pinned to his vest or something; with a weird name like Rick [NOT that I object to the name Rick in anyway] or another funny sounding name; she could tease him, or something. Maybe think about it in her head? [I'm sorry that I'm rambling])--would have been nice. It makes it more rememberable (is that a word?).

3. As for the emotions, yeah, it sounds about right. I changed schools in third grade, so, I can't say that I know how to relate to a teenager's point of view, but it seems pretty believable.

Well, over all, I really liked it :) You have nice style, and the detail is great. :D

~*~Kiss~*~

P.S. CONVERSE ROCK!!! :lol:
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