Young Writers Society

y’all ever be so hyper independent you insist on doing everything yourself but then get upset at your partner bc they’re not doing an equal share of the work even tho you’re self-aware enough to know that they are in fact more than willing to do things for you but you can’t let them bc anxiety is manifesting as control freak/perfectionism today? asking for a friend…

[list][*]I'm five weeks on testosterone as of yesterday. I can already feel a lot of changes. Emotionally, I'm a lot more like cis men, which obviously has downsides but on the whole is very affirming. My muscle mass has gone up a bit even though I don't work out a whole lot anymore. My jawline's sharper, and the skin on my face is getting coarser (a precursor to facial hair). And most noticeably, my voice is dropping slowly but surely. I was able to sing the baseline of a hymn last week, which was incredibly affirming.
[*]I exist in college as a trans man, although I'm primarily stealth. Six years ago, I was deep in denial and held transphobic and homophobic views I'm not proud of. Now, I'm learning to reject dogma and embrace humanity, and I'm so much happier for it.
[*]I started dating someone! It's my first "real" relationship, but it feels more comfortable and natural than I imagined possible. He's kinder, gentler, smarter, and stronger than I could have possibly expected from a partner. We share a lot of important values and communicate well, and I'm excited for what's in store for us
[*]I'm in my second semester of college as a bioengineering major. First semester was a little challenging, but I managed pretty well in an 18-credit semester. This semester, I'm getting hit with three weed-out classes, so pray for my GPA lol. I graduated high school with straight A's and a 4.4 weighted GPA, so learning to accept Bs and Cs is hard for me. I'm working on accepting that it's not a measure of how smart and capable I am and that it's okay and normal to not ace all of my courses.
[*]I'm learning a lot about myself in this new environment. Apparently some of my behaviors are indicative of ADHD, anxiety, perhaps OCD. Also, I have a lot more religious trauma than I thought. I had no idea most of these behaviors were well out of the ordinary. It's hard to realize a lot of what you were taught as a kid isn't normal, or true. It's even harder to question everything you believed in, but I'm grateful for the ways it's growing me.