Sink and Soak

~Chorus~
Listen to me
I've got nothing to do
I've got nowhere to go
This is how I live my day
Listen to me
I've got no one to see
I've got nowhere to be
This is how I live my life
Please, take it away

I live so close to you
The day's a suicide
Waiting for me
I don't know what to do
Your face, my suicide
In full waiting

I can hear you laughing
As I sit here with nothing to do
To me I'm normal, to you I'm not
I want you to fuck off
My hate can smell your precious soul
Draining me somehow and feeding you
So sink, I sink
Just down and down
My life is empty

(chorus)

I feel so close to you
Despite my agony
Grinding inside
I want to feel your face
But raped by vanity
Still thrusting deep

And I will bleed from this
The scar will always be exposed
I rot in a dark room
My face stuck to barbed wire on the window
From each look away more flesh peels off
No matter my choices, I'm still fucked
By a bitch like you forcing the thrust much deeper
For I am too pussy to kill myself
So can you please just go - That, or fucking finish me off?
Your life is plenty

(chorus x2)

Fucking, listen to me
I've got nothing to say
I've got nowhere to die
This is how I end my day
Listen to me
I get nothing I want
I've got nothing but pain
This is how you'll end my life

...and sink and soak
...and sink and soak
...I soak all of the pain.

Spoiler

This song is about a lonely individual suffering from agoraphobia who also is attracted to a girl in his neighborhood to the point where he becomes a bit paranoid believing that she is mocking him (in reality she doesn't know he exist). The barbed wire reference is just an extreme over exaggeration of him refusing to turn away from looking at her (whenever he does he becomes really depressed).

He begins to hate her beauty because of his attraction to her and the feelings of hate take away the feeling of being a pervert from him. Of course this makes him even more depressed to the point he wants to die by his own hands, but he doesn't have the courage to do so...so he just sits and hates and becomes more depressed as he longs to be with her.

He's a complicated individual..lol.

*Note - This song is only about one individual suffering from agoraphobia. This song in no way is an attack on "all" agoraphobics.

This is really deep. I can totally see this as a song. Like the rating implies, it is a little disturbing, but I still like it It's very raw, and very real.
"My face stuck to barbed wire on the window
From each look away more flesh peels off" <-- I liked this part the most
Keep writing! I hope to read more of your work

You're really talented....Your usage of words is really good! While I was reading it I felt that there's a beat within the words. I just wanted to give u some notices. You should end some of your lines with rhyming words, because like that, it's hard to give it a rhythm if it is turned into a song!