Have you ever seen someone you’ve never met, and instantly started fantasizing about how this one person could fill every void in your life? You start telling yourself this stranger could be the answer you’ve so desperately needed. She could turn all your bad habits around, make your life so much easier just by seeing that smile every day, make waking up in the morning not feeling so empty, give you back a surge of nostalgia yet be new at the same time.
At night you can’t sleep.
You keep thinking about how dull your life is, and how if you could only orchestrate a symphony of Hope luring this stranger to you everything else would ooze away. You give yourself a thousand reasons not to be content.
In the day you can’t speak.
Even when you’re around this person they seem out of reach. Everything you ever needed in life is in your grasp, but your tongue refuses to follow orders. Maybe your tongue is trying to save you the embarrassment your crazy emotionally unstable mind has fantasized up. That this person is human, and that they probably have just as many problems as you do.
At dinner you can’t believe.
Somehow, someway, you managed to get your muse on a date with you. This is where in Texas hold’em they say, “All in”. You’re betting all your invested time, hopes, and dreams that this person is everything you have sculpted them to be.
And chances are they aren't, but the beauty of chance is, they might.
