Teardrop's Attempt At Poetry

"Come one, come all, you're just in time to witness my first breakdown."
- All Time Low

Hi. This is my attempt at NaPo. I tried it last year. To tell you the truth I suck at poetry, so I'm not sure why I'm trying this maybe I'll get better. The first two are on here... the rest will be in the comments. Prepare for a month's worth of epic fails. And if you plan of coming on mine and reviewing mine, I don't really want reviews I guess. I don't mean that like "Ohh there's nothing wrong with them so leave! Blahh" XD I know they're not good. It gives me an excuse to express my feelings from my life into messed up and crappy poems. Oh, and thank you for checking my NaPo out! xoxo


1. A Million Reasons
They try to convince me that I mean something,
but the knife is like a boat,
and the blood flows like a river.
So I'll sail down my wrists like I mean absolutely nothing.


As the days begin to turn to nights,
The fields over the pavement start to grow.
I stay inside, peering out,
behind that tiny glass window.


As the days grow shorter, flowers begin to grow.
and the sun shines brighter.
But I stay hidden,
as my blood begins to run cold.



You might be able to see just one,
if you don't know how I feel.
but concealed behind my eyes.
There's a million reasons for me to use this gun.




2. Molly


The halls are littered with rumors and lies.
They torture her with every breath.

Molly's fear concealed behind her eyes,
Her world shaken by untimely death.

As they begin to effortlessly fly,
Molly stays stuck, with a thickening breath.

When Molly stays alone and shy,
He approaches her when close to death.

“With true love, all fear will die.”
and He softly tells Molly not to fret.



^ My Epic Fail? ^

3. Broken Bottles

The bottle flies aimlessly through the air,
shattering like my hope,
He doesn't know that this isn't fair.
His life like a sinking boat.

It is hard to cope,
with this constant lurking fear.
With a distant look,
He opens another beer.

His fingers wrap around my throat,
Do you have hope, my dear?
One simple question haunts my mind...
Will I float?

4. The Darkest Way

Why do we chase after the hardest things to hold on to,
Is it the smile?
The laugh?
The eyes?
Or is it something different dark that makes it untrue,
Inviting in the darkest ways,
And as the nights blend into days,
loves takes it's toll in terrible ways.

5. Monster

With every word you spat,
and every sentence said,
was like another piercing bullet,
coming straight towards my head.

I spend nights with horrid thoughts,
that they crawl up on my bed,
it's as if their blade was inviting,
and their hearts made of lead.

But every bottle that falls,
and every stupid thing I've said,
and every cut and every scar,
just helping the monster to be fed.

--I need to update this. ^.^

6. Just Fine


I've let you know,
I've stuck around,
I've fallen far behind.
That pain I needed,
That bliss I fought,
has been creeping up behind.

I've said it once,
I've said it twice,
I've said it a thousand fucking times.
That I'm okay,
That I'm fine,
but it's all just in my mind.

I've held it long,
I've held it dear,
I've held the truth that's been confined.
That life is good,
That life is pure,
That I know I'll be just fine.

7. A Broken Love Story

You have a way of being hopelessly defeating,
Sometimes I wish my wrists were bleeding,
just to ease the pain from the beating.

Running red when I can't take the abuse,
I know you can't take back what you used,
He reminds me of a bomb about to defuse.

Sometimes I question if I should stay or hide,
wishing it was my tears that you dried,
The reason I stay is I love you, that's why.


8. April

Water dances off my fingertips,
and fall with grace to my feet,
with no care or compassion,
but nothing to fear.

The April showers remind me
of a time I held dear,
when we spun without a care,
and when love killed our fears.

When the thunder rolled above,
I was reminded of the brakes
that slammed in panic,
and utter fear.

As the lightening burst overhead,
my thoughts were poisoned with the memory
Of distant phone calls,
Telling me you left me.

Water drops off my fingertips,
and falls like my hope to my feet,
I still care with compassion,
with everything to fear

9. Hands

I'd walk a thousand miles just to see your eyes.
Maybe this time it won't be for goodbyes.
Those hands like the ones you rise,
turn round and round for this world of lies.

As time turns, we fall to our knees.
I'm begging for you not to leave.
But as nights darken as He pleases,
He reveals hope at it's deepest.


10.
Snarls of discust,
will echo everlasting
over mountains of distrust,
and misunderstanding.
Swords slicing
through my skin,
Blood welds in my veins,
slowly surfacing.

11. Note: It's like A Haiku or something! XD

Can we stop a while,
until the blade is dropped,
And I'll show a smile?

12.

Dear Me,

Sometimes I find myself wondering,
where she drifted off to,
If I could search for her somewhere new,
I've lost her to someone new.
Will she come back
to our small town,
before everyone forgets,
that she was ever around?
Did she leave because no one cared,
Is that why she's always hiding
behind her hair?
Please bring her back,
if you find her somewhere.
I don't think she realized
that some people cared.

13.

I don't understand why you hang around,
when you could be beaming,
you'd rather frown?

I don't understand why you stay,
concieled behind your hair,
scars are scattered round.

I don't understand his maddness,
he's determined to call her bluff,
when have you had enough?


14.

You don't know how many tears I've cried,
spending sleepless nights wishing you were at my side.
You don't know how many times I'm hurt,
spending wasted days face down in the dirt.
You don't know how many times I wanted to leave this world,
spending hours listening to snarls with lip curled.

15.

As days and nights passed,
I knew that this wouldn't last,
us being together.

I see the way you smile,
I know it's going to be a while,
Until I can see it again.

There's an uneasy feeling in my heart,
I'm being pushed back to the start,
Without you I'm empty.

I constantly cry,
And always asks God why,
he separated us.

I hoped and gave a sigh ,
Wishing that time would fly,
So I can see you again.


16.

I act as if it doesn't phase me,
but on the inside my heart is bleeding,
broken waiting for your hand,
to meet mine and help me stand.

Aren't tears enough to show you,
that even though all we've been through,
I've been dying inside,
from the secrets and lies.


17.

Living life on the edge,
letting go of what they said.
Letting the nights roll by,
Feeling as if we're gonna fly.
Forgetting what happened in the past,
Softly saying,
Please make this last

18.
It's not that it's you I disgust,
it's those painful actions,
and the control you lust.

With every painful touch,
I cringe but stay silent,
In fear of the knife you clutch.

If everybody notices every clutch,
with concern and anger,
don't you see it hurts so much?

19.
The blade meets skin with a close precision,
unveiling my deepest, darkest sin.
With what I must pay for I know I can't win.

These lies I've kept deep within,
are fighting to win their way out
of the home in my heart that's like a dungeon.

Cause when you leave my side I'll only start again.

20.
The spring breeze ruffles her hair,
interlocked hands of skin so fair,
remembering the good times they'd shared.

Summer sun reigns overhead,
making her skin look burnt and red.
Toes in the sand, on his shoulder rests her head.

Sitting quietly in September leaves,
So close, he can hear her breathe,
Sighing softly in relief.

Chattering in bitter winter wind,
He holds her close to his skin,
She closes her eyes with a grin.