'Last Years Wishes Are This Years Apologies'

#16

Oxymoronic at best-
With your wide eyes
and lovely lies

Ironic at your worst-
Promising me you'll never leave,
kissing and telling behind my back
I excepted it

I'd drag you to a river
Watch you drown
Just so I could kill you slowly
Like you'd do to me

You give me fake roses
To mark each horrid year spent together

Slowly, I'd pull them apart
Because these dumb little roses don't represent what they're supposed to

#17

Fuck you.

Fuck you for thinking you're so great when you're clearly not.
The world doesn't revolve around you, bitch.

It's clearly something you don't know.
You believe that I'm here solely for your purpose, when I happen to have a, you know, life.

I once told you that I'd be there for you.
You took that way too literally.
I guess you never thought of it,
but I need to sleep.

So fucking, unimpressed.
You narcissistic liar
Leave me alone.

Hey, WW!
There's something 'bout #16 I really like. Excpet maybe the last line breaks the flow - which is sort of good.
Anyway, g'luck!

#18


I’m past the point of caring.
I’m almost more numb then before, if that is possible.
I’m back in my bubble,
Where I feel nothing

I rather like my bubble
It keeps me safe, lets me glide through life.
Which is what I want, right?

I could truly life outside my bubble
But then, I’d be forced to other people’s standards of perfection
Look how well that turned out

No, that wouldn’t do
I couldn’t take the criticism
I’m not used to feeling emotions

I’m used to being numb,
Used to crying myself to sleep, then waking up
To pretend to be happy

I hate that

I’d rather be true to myself
then lie twenty-four/seven

I’d like that.
I WANT that
But unfortunately, you never get what you actually want

I know what you want from me-
the truth

That’s exactly what I want from me too

#19

Fairydust
Sparkly fairydust
They say it makes you fly-gives you wings
Redbull does the same thing.


I think I'm on Fairydust.
When I'm with you, I think I could fly.
When I'm without you, I feel dead, grounded.


Lovely.
I think you are just lovely.
I hate you for making me feel that way,
but other then that, lovely.


you make me feel like a lady,
docile, and unassuming.
Easily skilled in making you laugh,
wiping your cheeks hen you cry at night


But you have secrets you can't share.
And if you trusted me, you'd tell me
but you can't.
I guess I could respect that

You're turning out to be scarier
then your handsome exterior would show
you take pleasure in my screams
laugh at my pain

I’m stuck.
You’d hunt me down if I left,
And I can’t do that.

It’d kill me if I left you
I’m still addicted to your
Hazy kisses and warm touch

So, you’re a bit hot tempered
I’d expect that from a teenage boy.
I’ll stay with you though
I’d rather be your punching bag then be alone at night

# 20


Ringing bells, little rats
Hidden in the rafters
The clocks are ringing
low and rumbling

She doesn't like the sound
Doesn't like the insitent ringing
She doesn't like the dark
shadows from the rafters

but theres no place else to go
Nowhere else to run,
nowhere else to hide
when you live in a clock tower

# 21

Thanks.
Thanks for all the effort, you know
It really matters to me.
THanks for all the screaming and the yelling.
Making me feel like crap on a daily basis.

You rock at cutting everything meaningfull out of my life
Making me look like the dumb one,
Your skilled at that, allstar

I have a rolemodel.
His name is Pete Wentz
You aren't my rolemodel, nor will you ever be,
so you can quit daydreaming.

I hate you.
I really, seriously, hate you.