Preface
Sometimes you just know when your in love. Its hard to explain how you know. Its impossible to put into words. Thats how it is for me. My name is Alison Meadows and I am in love with Jason Bentley.
We met last year, my freshman year in high school. I'm a sophmore now and he is a junior. He is the most amazing guy I've ever met. He is sweet, cute, and adorable. I've been secretly in love with him for a year.
He doesn't know how I feel about him. Barely anyone does. Hopefully that all will change soon. I'm tired of admiring from a far. Its time for something to happen and soon.
Chapter 1
It was finally January 4th. I had been waiting in agony for the past 2 weeks to pass. I was thrilled! I was finally going to get to see Jason.
Jason and I had met last year in art class. The first time he had looked at me he had smiled. During the second semester we had become friends and, I thought, on our way to something more. But something happened over the summer. For a whole semester we had barely talked or even looked at each other. This semester was going to be different.
I was armed for battle. I had on my brand new Tony Lama boots, with my gorgeous new belt. I had a very cute blouse, that I had worn to the FFA Christmas party, with a cropped blue jean jacket over it. I was going to be noticed this semester even if it killed me.
The seconds ticked by slowly. I thought the bus ride would never end. I walked down the hall of my school searching for Jason. I finally caught sight of him. My breath caught in my breath in my throat and my heart skipped a beat. I had not seen him in 2 weeks but time had not made me immune to his perfect features.
His blonde hair looking slightly messy with his ice blue eyes framed in dark lashes and his smile. Words cannot describe his smile. I couldn't help but think that he got sexier every dang day.
"Hey chica" I heard a high pitched voice practically scream in my ear.
I looked to see who it was and should have known it would be one of my best friends in the whole world, Cammie. "You might want to close your mouth and stop drooling." Cammie said.
I knew she was joking but she wasn't off by much. I glanced back at Jason for just a second. He was walking by me and we made eye contact for a second then he winked at me and flashed his million dollar smile. Let me repeat that. He winked at me. HE WINKED AT ME!
I almost screamed from the feeling of it. Finally he was noticing me again. Finally we were on our way to be something more, I hoped. I turned to Cammie with what I only supposed was a shocked look on my face.
"What?" Cammie asked with a curiousity rising in his voice. I couldn't answer. "What?!" Cammie nearly screamed.
"He winked at me" I barely managed to whisper.
"What?!" Cammie said in near disbelief.
"He winked at me!" I nearly screamed.
"OMG!" Cammie and I screamed in unison.
Then all of a sudden Cammie got deathly quiet. Her eyes got huge and her mouth nearly dropped open.
"What? Cammie what is it?!" I said frantically.
"Allie he's coming this way" Cammie said pronouncing every syllable.
I turned around so fast my long auburn hair whipped around me. When my hair layed flat again I saw him. Sure enough Jason was walking towards us. His eyes were locked on me and a smile was on his face. Not his normal smile but a nervous smile. I couldn't help myself, I had to smile back.
He walked right upo to me and wrapped his arms around my waist as he gave me a hug. I know hugs are normal but not for us, not with him. I threw my arms around him in response to him hugging me. I was in heaven. Him touching me made me remeber the last time he had touched me.
*It was the day of our ag final. We had all finished our test. I was sitting on a work table in the ag shop. I was talking to some of my friends when allof a sudden it felt like electricity coarsing through my leg. I looked down and Jason was laying his phone down on my leg and told me to pick a song.*
Jason pulled out of the hug after crossing the "just friends" line. I looked up at him and realized he had grew a few inches over the past two weeks. He flashed me a smile that made me want to melt right there and he put his arm around my shoulder.
I flashed Cammie a look that told her to get lost and fast. She glanced around a second then scurried off towards Brooke who was walking toward us. I knew that they would be watching us but I didn't care.
I slipped my arm around Jason's waist and kinda leaned into him. I don't know why I did this, it just seemed right. I looked up at Jason and saw a look on his face that I couldn't decipher.
"So how was your Christmas Break Allie?" Jason asked as he brushed a stray piece of hair out of my eyes.
"It was okay but it seemed very long and passed very slowly." I said. I was shocked at the words that had come out of my voice. What possessed me to say that?
A look of confusion flashed over Jason's perfect features but he instantly recovered and smiled at me. That smile was going to be the death of me. I would do anything for that smile.
"Why do you think it was so long?" Jason asked, his voice genuily curious.
"Because I couldn't see you." I said almost choking on the words as they came out of my mouth. I wished instantly I could take them back, but then again I didn't. Why was I being so honest with him? Five seconds ago I wouldn't have dreamed I would be this honest with him. It must be that smile. Curse that smile!
"So you misse me huh" Jason said with a very flirty smile on his face. Jason leaned down and whispered in my ear "I missed you too. A lot. More than you can imagine."
I shivered because Jason's breath had tickled my ear. He seemed to take pleasure in that little shiver. His grip around my shoulders tightened, pulling me closer to him. I moved in even closer savoring this moment.
All of a sudden the first bell rang. My whole self had been so focused on Jason that the bell had made me jump nearly jump out of my skin. Jason smile at my jumpiness. He moved his arms to around my waist and gave me another hug. I felt something in my hair. Could it have been his lips? I felt weak kneed at the thought of his lips in my hair.
Jason unwound his arms from around my waist and tilted my head up so I was looking at him. He smiled then said "see you next period."
I watched him as he walked toward his first period class. Every part of me that he had touched burned, especially my heart. I knew right then as I watched his retreating figure that this semester would be different. For the better.
