Make up, hair, clothes, money; you cling to them almost magnetically,anything to help you escape the bottomless pit of screams errupting from an empty well inside your chest. The pulling strings drag and scrape; light pummeling like a savage beast attempting to make a break for it. For freedom.
Faces pass by like a montage of ignorance, people look but never see. Stroking the casing of rainbow shaped hell, emcompassed in a cloud of vanilla. Greetings spring from my every pore like beads of perspiration, the boy at the bus stop that meets your eye for a little too long, the burly truck driver who toots his horn in appreciation at your shapely behind; just meaningless utterances that cut like a knife. No one wants to know that in those rare moments of happiness I scare myself so much I have to bite my lip to stop myself screaming, no one cares.
Truth is no one will ever care.
Because I'm not special enough for someone to want to help.
