Never Loved

Never loved
I'm walking into life without the feeling of love.
There may be some who out there caring for me, but never someone that loved me.

They feelings I learned when I was young was not love and friendship.
Instead the first emotion I can remember is solitude and bitternes.

I have been responsible and in control of my own life from a young age.
Now it's hard to let go of the control and let people inside my heart.
The feeling of betrayal lays deep within me and it are difficult to let go.

I distinguish myself from my peers in many ways, both in language and thought.
It may be this that makes it hard for me to form a relationship to another human.
What will happen if I let my heat be taken by another again?
Will he destory it as many before, or will it be something in my favor?

I've been throught to much for simple give my heart away in a teen romance.
If I'm going to take the next step, I need to be sure that this is what I want.

My body may look like it cross the line between childe and adult.
But my mind and thoughts crossed the lined a long time ago.

In my spare time I write
A poem of emotion or a story of life.
Occasional a song may be written too.
It makes me feel like I'm free.
instead of tide to the fate of my life.

This is not a normal teenage leisure, and I'm not a normal teen.
I have experienced pain and longing at a level none of my peers will understand.

I've heard people that I thought loved me, talking behind my back.
It has gotten normal
But the feeling of betrayal is always there.

I ask myself time after time
What have I done to deserve this?
I can't remember what wrong I have done.
So people please enlight me and I'll try to understand

So first of all, welcome to YWS.
Your poem is nice as many people have had this experience of not knowing love. I just though that there were a few spelling mistakes and some parts did not make too much sense. To highlight the errors, I will use a different font colour.

I'm walking into life without the feeling of love.
There may be some who out there caring for me, but never someone that loved me. Here you do not need the "who" before the word "out".

They (do you mean "the"?)feelings I learned when I was young was "were" and not "was" not love and friendship.
Instead the first emotions I can remember iswere solitude and bitternes.
I honestly don't understand this part because I don't see how we can 'learn'feelings. But I get what you're trying to say

I have been responsible and in control of my own life from a young age.
Now it's hard to let go of the control and let people inside my heart.
The feeling of betrayal lays I would use "lies" deep within me and it areis difficult to let go.

I distinguish myself from my peers in many ways, both in language and thought.
It may be this that makes it hard for me to form a relationship to"with" instead of "to" another human.
What will happen if I let my heart be taken by another again?
Will he destroy it as many before, or will it be something in my favor?

I've been throught to much for simple give my heart away in a teen romance.This line does not make sense at all (sorry). I think you mean "I've been through too much to simply give my heart away to a teenage romance
If I'm going to take the next step, I need to be sure that this is what I want.

My body may look like it has cross the line between childe there is no "e" and adult.
But my mind and thoughts crossed the"that"instead of "the" lined a long time ago.

In my spare time I write
A poem of emotion or a story of life.
Occasionally a song may be written too.
It makes me feel like I'm free.
Instead of tide to the fate of my life.

This is not a normal teenage leisure, and I'm not a normal teen.
I have experienced pain and longing at a level none of my peers will understand.

I've heard people that I thought loved me, talking behind my back.
It has gotten normal
But the feeling of betrayal is always there.

I ask myself time after time
What have I done to deserve this?
I can't remember what wrong I have done.
So people please enlight me and I'll try to understand

I like the idea, but I don't think it sounds like a poem--neither is it structured like so: the stanzas are composed of different numbers of lines, there is no actual rythm. I understand that this is your first work that you are posting here and I hope I don't sound like a strict critique or like a specialist because I know how it feels to have your first work reviewed, but just add these little changes and it can sound better.
Keep writing

Hello there and welcome
I will have to agree with the previous reviewer on certain levels about the poem. First of all I felt that the whole structure was off. Structure in the sense that it did not fall to well as a poem. Reading this sounded so much like sentences in a short story or something. There were no poetic elements and no unique characters. The topic though means well, it was just not represented in a good way...don't take this the wrong way, it's just my opinion. Another thing, cross check your work before submitting. Check for spelling errors to make sure it's next to perfect.
One good thing though is that I'm totally feeling the length of this; it says a lot. It tells me you were having an inspiration rush and all of this came out. One suggestion, why don't you channel it into a little story?
Keep writing and goo luck