This is just some crappy lecture that will you don't want to hear and will bore you the whole way through, but I have been through my own pains and wondering just as alot of you probably have some where along this road. So here me out this one time because what you will read before you is true like it or not, but thats just life and it aint getting any better. 
We all want to be strong in our hardest times; sometimes it's for ourselves but mainly it's for the ones you love and hurt when you cry. This is the simple truth; it may hurt to know it, but once we realize it is what it is, that what being strong is really about.
There are things in life that we can’t hold onto despite how much we love them, people we will hurt without meaning to, and pieces from the past that will always remain in our hearts. The people you love will shoot you in the heart until it bleeds like crazy, your dreams will be crushed into a pile of dog crap, and there will be so many times where you feel like your left alone with no one there to guide you, you’ve have already lost count. Your left wondering why things like this ever happen to you and if you deserved them or not. After your done crying and feeling sorry for yourself, you start to think what would life be like without these pains and regrets. Everything would be perfect and the road your traveling on will be straight enough to easily pass through. You wouldn’t have to worry about being strong or suffering for the ones you love. However, these things we may never really know the answer to, how strong you are able to be and how strong you choose to be, every lesson we learn from every million tears we cry, make us who we are and help create who we are to become. If there were no choices we are forced to make then we’ll never really know which path we are most likely to choose. If we never fall then we will never know if we are able to pick ourselves back up again. If there is no tears in our eyes then we will never know who is there for us to wipe them away.
Being strong is just another word for hiding from your pain and showing the world that you are ok even when your crashing inside. Don’t force yourself to be ok because that will only make you die harder. Never leave behind the nights you were scared; the ones who hurt you, the days you didn’t have the strength to stop your cry. Don’t let go of the memories that taught you how to love and how to die. Love the ones you have around you because one day you are going to wish you had them by your side and don’t ask for more than what you got because one day your going to want it back. Never give up because you don’t know what lies ahead of you.
I am not strong I am weak, crashing and burning inside my own body. I make more mistakes than I do achievements and I live in my own selfish reasons. These memories that cause me to live the way I do now I will never forget. The joys and pleasure paint our beautiful attractive character, but the things that can break us down is what confirms who we really are.
