Streaks of blood muddled with patches of soil and gravel stuck to Justin's face like worn-out bandages. He could feel specks of grime getting trapped beneath the blood before it dried up, and it stung like hell. His knees ached where they'd met the asphalt, and every breath pulled tight across his ribs like something in there wasn't sitting right. He coughed up some dirt, checked his hands. They were still shaking.
He just couldn’t understand how this went so wrong. He had his eyes on the road and his hands steady on the wheel. They were on the right track, everything was in order… and he kept his mouth shut and stayed out of the way until he was needed, exactly how he was told. So how could it have possibly gone wrong?
This was the destination at least—something he might've pat himself on the back for if he didn't feel like such a failure. Designated spot or not, he shouldn't be here. He didn't belong in any of this; not the uniform, the rank, the constant violence and secrecy. None of it. He recalled how his lieutenant had challenged him. He’d asked if he was really up for the task, the one he'd been assigned to against his will.
‘Of course not, you idiot!’ He should’ve said. But despite the circumstances, the prospect of proving something, of being capable rather than just a coward, had been too tantalizing to pass up. So he'd decided he would do it whether he was being forced to or not.
"That asshole, sending us all the way out here just to get killed," he hissed through his teeth. His shoulder was dislocated, his head throbbed, and the vessel carrying the chemicals was a bust. To hell with the mission. He just didn't want his comrades' blood on his hands. He wanted to go home with most of his sanity still intact.
He stopped mulling when he realized he was about to walk straight into the entrance of the venue. Fear wrapped around his ankles, but it was already too late… Someone had noticed him. He figured he'd be a target. At the very least, he’d look suspicious dressed like this, but he couldn't bring himself to reach for that damned handgun.
By now it was probably burning to a crisp in the jeep along with the rest of their supplies. He silently cursed himself for that. He should’ve just blown his head off right then and there, but there was no time to look back on it now. He ducked behind a bush, hoping the woman would mistake him for an unusually large rat or something as stupid as that sounded. She kept walking toward him anyway. Of course she did.
He held his breath. A syringe in one hand, the other dangling lifelessly at his side, waiting for the right moment to strike.
