there is faded blue writing on my hand:
my timetable written in blueberry biro.
scripturemathsfrenchgeography it's like a
neverending stream of wordsinkpaper.
hey but it's no better sitting in cars and
eating pears and listening to pete murray,
although i have to admit it's so poetic when there's
twelve more days to be scratched out on the calender.
like she said, the day we never thought would come
has come around so fast.
i hate to think of all that time trickled down the drain
that i will never regain, but i can't do a thing about it.
i'm just a girl who wears purple fluffy grosby slippers
at four o'clock in the afternoon and draws
on her school skirt because she's bored as hell.
time gets the better of me every single moment.
they all look champagnebeautiful and i hate the way
i walk away from it all, just so i don't have to face it.
i can't sit and take reality; it's tooconcrete toogrey toocrushing.
but they're reality and they're tooglittering tooblonde tooglucose.
i don't understand how reality can take such different
forms, such different disguises and still be
reality. i don't think i want to understand it.
each day i try to duck under their purple fairy wings.
and yeah, it works sometimes.
sometimes i can escape such smotheringly shimmering wrath
and just lie back and watch the city sleep.
other times their wings wrap themselves around me and i choke.
this time next month i'll be walking in high heels
and travelling on the metro and eating baguettes
and ihopetogod it feels less like reality
and more like brightly coloured pavements which feel nice under your feet.
written: Saturday 4th September 2004, 8:16pm.
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