When Richard came home, he was quiet. He set down his coat on the railing nearby the door and then slowly took off his hat, letting the water drizzle off of it. He sneezed violently, once, twice, and then he reached into his pocket to take out a handkerchief.
A woman walked in. She was slim, but not overly so, and her hair was in a loose ponytail that was almost out. She had bags under her eyes, but she still smiled when she saw Richard, and she came to him and took his briefcase.
“How was your day?”
“Long.”
The man continued squinting, but there were obviously no more sneezes coming. He dabbed at his nose and then shoved the handkerchief in his pocket. “Very long.”
The woman smiled patiently. “Well, why don’t you tell me about it? The kids are in bed and we have the whole night to ourselves.” She winked at him.
He ignored her and took off his wet trench coat. “I’m not really in the mood for talking today. Things were busy. Much too busy.” He looked at her for the first time, and she noticed his haggard face. “But I’m glad to see you, Virginia.”
“I’m glad to see you too.” She paused, fiddling with the briefcase, a solemn look on her face. Then her face broke into a silly grin. “Well, the day has ended! Dinner is on the table. Why don’t you get yourself settled? I’ll take care of your things. There’s pasta and salad and…”
He began walking into the room, his shoes squeaking as he did so. “How was your day?” he called out.
“Oh fine! Nothing spectacular happen, but what do you expect?”
Her voice was faint and he realized that it probably wasn’t the best thing trying to carry on a conversation across rooms. He could barely hear her, besides he might wake the children.
Instead, he turned to the table. It was not fancy. The pasta was covered in some foil, the foil loyally inscribed with the date it was made, how long you should heat it, and not to heat it up with the foil. It was mostly for the kids. Several months ago, Jaime had heated up some chicken, complete with foil, only to realize that the chicken was bad. The mess had been terrible. Since then, Jaime hadn’t eaten a speck of chicken.
Or at least Richard didn’t think he had. He tried to remember the last time he had eaten with his family.
He couldn’t remember.
The rest of the table was pathetically simple. The table cloth was worn and, from this night’s dinner he guessed, covered with large tomato splotches. A vase was in the center, but it was full of dandelions. Probably from the lawn. He hadn’t had a chance to mow it in so long.
He rubbed his head and groaned.
Virginia came the next minute. “Oh! Let me heat those up for you!” She whisked away the pasta, tossing aside the foil, and stuck it in the microwave. “It’s not great, but it’s filling.”
“I’m sure it’ll be fine.”
She gave a quick glance at him again and sighed. “You sure look tired.”
He said nothing to that.
Virginia turned back to make the food and didn’t say anything until the microwave beeped. She opened the door and reached inside, flinching when she realized the plate was hot. She looked for a mitt.
“Do you believe in hell?”
She was startled by this question and turned back quickly. “Richard!” she cried, looking at his face. “What a question!”
Richard looked unconcerned. “What? It was only a question.”
“Hmph! She turned around and stirred the pasta. “Ah well, I suppose it’s a reasonable one at that. But what a surprise! Yes, I do believe in hell. I believe it exists. Why did you ask?” She put the plate at his place. “Don’t you believe in it also?”
He shrugged, looking a little embarrassed. “I don’t know what to believe in anymore.”
“Ah.” She rubbed his shoulder. “Well, we all have bad days. I suppose this one was just a little worse than usual. It’ll get better. It always does.”
“No it won’t!” He pushed her aside. She started back, confused. “Don’t you see?” he began. “It’ll never get better! You live, you die, then what? Then what!” His voice trailed off and he picked up his fork and poked his food.
“I see.” She turned to leave. He got up and grabbed her arm.
“No, no! Forget what I said. Forget it. Just forget it.” His eyes were desperate and his breathing tense. She looked at him quietly before sitting down.
She didn’t look up at him. She brushed her hair back, thought better of it, and let her hair fall forward to cover her face. One look at her made him feel terrible. She looked so tragically beautiful with the tears glistening from her eyes.
He said suddenly, grabbing her hand, “Let’s pretend like it was April two years ago. We just met, and there was nothing bothering us. There could be nothing bothering us. The world was full of life and love…”
“You’ve been like this all month,” she said slowly. “All month. And you never tell me anything.” Her voice began to rise and tremble, so she stopped. He looked glumly ahead.
“It’s been for more than a month,” he murmured. “Or at least it feels like eternity.” He stroked her fingers. They were surprisingly soft for all the housework she did. He pulled her closer. “I’m sorry, really, I am. It’s just…”
“One bad day.” She pulled away from him. He stared at her glumly before attacking his pasta once again. Then he looked up.
“You must forgive me, Virginia. It’s just…” He paused before saying the next sentence, his lips trembling. He could feel his fingers and arms, nay, his entire body give an involuntary shudder. He closed his tightly. His breath seemed raw… breathing was work. “The patient. My patient. Amos.”
She blinked and he sighed. Of course she didn’t know about him. He never discussed his work with her.
It was something they had agreed about early on. Richard worked in a sanitarium as a psychologist. He did personal counseling with the lunatics – no, guests – to help them adapt to normal life. It was hard, but rewarding. Even so, he never felt inclined to tell Virginia about them. It felt too much like gossiping. To be able to help, you had to have trust in both parties, and how could trust be gained when he shared all the details about them to his wife? No… it was better to keep it a secret. He would not tell them about Virginia’s life and he would not tell Virginia about their lives.
Yet for some reason…
He poked his dinner again and began to eat. Virginia watched him. He did love her. She was beautiful beyond compare. And, though her face now looked tired, she did have a smile for him when he came home. He thoughtfully mulled over this while he ate. There was no conversation.
Finally he finished.
He looked up at Virginia and gave a hesitant, hopeful smile. “Come, let’s go in the parlor. I want to tell you about it.”
“You don’t have to.”
“But I want to. Come, let’s go.” He led her into the room.
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