my breath leaves as bubbles form,
brewing little clouds around me.
once milky froth weaving through
the calm waves across the sea
i chase the disruptions of peace,
and trace the ripples in the water,
sketching frail wisps of friends
better left forgot to my own
sea of memories lying before me.
your words remain anchors chained
to my expressions, and i still struggle
for a shaded smile in answer to
the hooks piercing my lips harder
than my trodden teeth from
grinding away any replies.
my feet grace the sea floor, and
i pretend that you're the shadow
haunting my every step.
my hallucinations aren't enough;
your muted curses are as ethereal as
any kind of midnight musing.
i yearn for your lies at this moment
of begging for a release and sinking
further into the sea, choking on the
trickles of pain from years ago.
instead, i lay back to bask in
my muted memories of your
bitter murmurs to combat the
rising sea levels around me.
my head barely floats above
the water threatening to drown me.