im shaking
im scared
i want to cry
but
my sister and my dogs are in the room
so i cant
not in front of them
i cant even type this right
help me
help me please
i want to huddle
in a ball
and never come out
sweater town isn't here
someone just
someone just told me to
fucking
kill
myself
online on one of my favorite websites
now i want to do it
because that's all anyone
says to me lately on
different nerd medias
"kill yourself"
"kill yourself"
"kill yourself"
and i feel like
i am getting into a mental state
a g a i n
im sorry if i hurt anyone in advance
now im crying
at my computer screen
while my sister is besides me
looking at her phone
not seeing my face through the youtube
and i cant
i cant with this life anymore
i wish that everyone would just
die
and that everything will
die
and i hope to go to
hell
so i can experience more
pain
i just cant
i cant
icant
icanticanticanticanticanticant
i cant
no i cant
no
i
cant
im shaking
im cold
i cant move
paralyzed
im not
not
not
good enough
nobody wants me
i cant get farther
i just cant
im just going to
i cant
no
im not perfect
no one is perfect
i am not fucking perfect
when i am called perfect
it makes me think about what they want
is it money
is it attention
i cant even provide those
its just plain not possible
and i need a
hug
someone
right now
i cant anymore
i just
im crying
i just want to grab a
kitchen knife
rope
mace
and
stab
hang
bash in
myself to
end all of the fucking pain
it wont get better
i wont get better
and you claim that you feel pain
what pain do you feel
no one will feel pain if i die
thats not true
im alone
ha
i am alone
fucking
completely
alone
i just cant
im alone
and cold
no
soul
nothing
life
anything
just emptiness
and darkness shrouding
all of me
im not here
sweater town isnt here
instead i am in hell
burning away into
ashes
dust
nothingness
and i cant breathe
i cant
nose stuffed up
lungs crushed
heart crushed
i am poeming
to save my life
even if its not working
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