It was a Friday night, and the usual time for our walk has come. But he wasn’t back home yet. “I will just wait a little” I thought and just minutes later I heard the so awaited scream “I’m home”. I was so happy to hear that voice again. So gentle, that it makes my heart melt. But as I got to meet his face I could see a tired expression.
“We will go out, just give me a second to change my clothes”
“It’s okay, if you’re exhausted we can have our walk tomorrow morning”-I responded.
“You know I have work tomorrow, so we will spend our time now. We haven’t missed a Friday for 3 years, remember?”
Okay, just tell me if you need something or you feel bad- “- I was cut by another shout.
“Just shut up already! Am I a baby or something, huh?”
We soon got outside. It was dark and a light wind was blowing. The sky was clear that night and we could see the moon and all the little shining star. Although it seemed like a normal Friday, I felt worried for no reason. Something was going to happen, but for the first time I had no idea of the future. It was him, who pulled me out of my thoughts:
“I wand to share something. We promise to don’t keep secrets from each other so…”
“I’m listening then.” – I said
“I’m not comfortable with talking about that when we’re surrounded with all these people. Can we go somewhere else…please?”
After about half an hour of silent walking beside each other we were able to see the blue water of the ocean. I was impatient, and when we sat on the nearby bench, I asked what was so important, so I asked my partner about it.
“You know some of the promises we made. We promised to always be sincere. I want to tell you the truth after holding all of this inside me for so long. Don’t think it wasn’t hard to-“
“Just tell me already!” – I raised my voice.
“Don’t fucking interrupt me! You want to know so bad? Then here, I’ll put it short: I don’t love you anymore!!!”- he shouted.
I was speechless. So that was the thing which bothered her. With a lot of effort, I tried asking a question.
“Ok, so what are you going to do now? You’re leaving, because you don’t feel the same anymore, or you’re staying until you find a place where to live?” My tone was cold as ice at that moment.
“I already have another person to love, so I’m going to live with him.”
“Okay then…go back ‘home’ and pack up, since I don’t want to see your stuff anymore.”
“You know, a relationship doesn’t last forever, so don’t overreact. Do you think it was easy for me to-“ . He was cut off by my words filled with pain.
“Just…just stop talking. Then did YOU know how much I loved you, how much I worried about you? I can’t just erase three years of all our memories together! You were always acting cold, you were rude, but I didn’t give up. I won’t be surprised if you have never loved me, you could have at least told me at the beginning…”
I said that with such speed I didn’t have any air in my lungs left.
This was the end of my heart. It couldn’t hold it anymore and a tear ran down my face.
“Then let me tell you you’re not the only one who’s hurt!
There was a minute of silence, but he broke it:
“I’m going to prepare my luggage now, I’m leaving tomorrow. It’s not going to take me much time, since I’m almost done with packing up. Just wait for me here, I have more things to tell you.”
“Ok, go now.” – I answered, still in shock.
He left me alone with my mind. I wasn’t planning on waiting here, so I decided to give her my last words. I took out a small piece of paper I had and started writing on it.
You may have hated me all this time, but I’ve always loved you. And I will always do. I wish you all the best from now, but please…don’t forget me.
I filled all the space and left the not on the bench. The ocean was so beautiful, I wasn’t able to stop looking at them with my brown eyes, now covered in tears. Maybe…I can become one of these incredible waves too?
There was a bench nearby the ocean. The moonlight was revealing a human figure holding something. The sleepy nature around could only hear heavy breaths and small water drops meeting the ground.
But soon, silence remained in the moonlight. The last thing heard was just water splash.