Just as I was getting to feel secure and safe you emailed me
My heart vanished into the void but still beat like I needed to run away
All the memories came flooding back in a flash like a near-death situation
I shook and shook like I was in the arctic with no clothes
Just looking at the email in the inbox drained the life out of me
That voice in my head screamed, "WHY DIDN'T YOU BLOCK HIM EARLIER?"
I was yelling and pouring my fears out to my friend because of what you did
Why couldn't you just let go and leave me be like what I have been trying to do?
Still 2 hours before I could feel somewhat safe to know what you wrote to me
The pain was shown on my face with wrinkles in the forehead and twists in my mouth
The guilt was creeping up on me again and I know it was your fault but....
I couldn't shake it, I couldn't shake that it was
Finally after grueling hours and thousands of tears shed in solace I opened the email
"Don't worry. I've calmed down. Kind of."
I've got a bad feeling about this. Nothing good can come out of this boy.
I kept reading. It seems as though your grammar hasn't changed.
My friend agreed, my real friend, not the one you had been talking to before
But everything you typed was so sinister in tone that no part of me can believe you've been calm
I cannot believe what you were implying through out the whole email
"You seek out people who are just like me"
"You can't live without me"
"You need me"
No, no I don't
I need to...
You signed away as "Phoenix" and were up till 7am writing this, huh?
Well with 3 clicks of a button it was done
I don't have to think about you anymore
I hope I never hear from you ever again
Sleep well old buddy because deep down you know
That you are and always will be the desperate one