They compare me to her
To find me inferior
Ad it does make me sad
Even though I seem brave from the exterior.
And often tears come faster than the rain
And oh! The indescribable burning pain
My inner critic gives me 24/7
Is soon going to make me insane
'She's more obedient and scholarly
And I'm all that too- just conversely
She's better and better, I'm worse and worse
Those comments making me live somberly
But does she really believe in those talks
Why doesn't she ever want to walk in my socks
A sister failing to understand another's pain
With her every cruel word, it's me she shocks.
Don't let the praises get to your head
I tell her, when we go to bed
She thinks I'm being nasty and all
At that, my tears well- unshed.
I've been rude to her too, I remember
Hurt by the words of my family member
But can't she forgive me for my mistakes- after all,
People do these things when their heart is an ember.
I was tired, miserable, filled with gloom
She could've made my life bloom
Didn't she remember all the things I did
When she was upset, lying in our room.
I wrote poetry exclusively for her
All those times, we argued- I asked myself to deter
I stopped myself to upset you, and after I did
There were only nice words I had to confer
I care about my self- esteem
And I know sometimes it might seem
That it's more than I care for her- but no!
Seeing her with me, is still my happiest dream.
I do really love her though
Even if we do get in a row'
I'm the one more eager for reunion
While 'her' love, she doesn't show.
She thinks she wasn't rightly served
I feel, I wasn't given what I deserved
But isn't it human nature, you tell,
That we never forever truly feel loved.