To the men that broke my heart, each of you played a role in the person I am to today.
To the first man that broke my heart.
You were supposed to be my father, my protector, someone to count on through life. The times I spent waiting for you to pick me up for our weekend. Always excited each time hoping that you will show up; but you almost never did. You would rather get high then deal with your only child. After years of disappointment I had enough and told you I never wanted to see you again. You didn't even try to fight for me; that is how you broke my heart.
To the next man or should I say boy.
You were my best friend, I loved you with all of my being. I dreamed of the day that I would confess my feeling and we would be together. When that day finally came, I told you I loved you, you said it back. Then you said you already had a girlfriend and you weren't going to break up with her; because she was older and more experienced that you wanted sex. Well we were only 14 why do you need sex at this age; I was not ready. You crushed my heart and I lost my best friend.
To the man who forced me.
You were a coworker at the camp we both worked at, we hit off right away. We as group with our other friends were hanging out at your cabin drinking and having a good time. I don't like to drink so I only had one. I started to feel weird so you walked me to my cabin; and that's when you did the worse thing anyone could do. You violated me, took my purity while I was vulnerable unable to fight back. I woke up the next day naked covered in blood feeling ashamed and scared. I stopped trusting men, I got depressed. I was at the point of thinking I was better off dead. You are the reason I look over my shoulder whenever I'm out.
To the man who used me.
You were the light in my dark cloud. While our romance wasn't long you made me feel special. Telling me how beautiful I was and how hard you were falling for me. I gave you my heart, soul, and body; after that you said it wasn't going to work out taking back everything you told me. I was just an easy fuck you said, making me feel worth less and used.
To the man that will never break my heart.
You can thank all the men before for making me the person you love. For letting me go so I'll be all yours. You owe them everything.