For The Ones We Love
It may be hard to let go to the ones we love but that’s what i had to do. I had to let go the the one and only animal who understood me. When he (my cat) was around he made me feel like I belong. If it wasn’t for the way he made me feel I don’t think I would be here today. When i was in an emotional downfall he was there to bring me to the the light. Even if I was in the deepest part of my hatred where my inner demon lives he found a way to my heart and brung me out. I think he was a guardian angel sent to me to support and love me like a mother bear would do to her cubs. One day he started to love me more than normal. I didn’t think a second thought about it because he always loved me. I was arrogant. Sure. A fool. Definitely. But when i was around him I could forget about my problems and be in another reality with nothing but peace and quiet. But when he died i didn’t know what to do. My life revolved around him and without him I started raging like the Hulk in one of my rages. I eventually isolated myself from the world. I eventually wounded up in a downfall that not even my cat can bring me out of. But he did anyway. Even though he isn’t here with me i can feel and sense him watching over me. It was hard to let go to him. But someday we all have to let go to something we have a sentimental attachment to. It may be hard to do but we will eventually heal and i did somewhat. Letting go to him was the hardest thing i had to do. I had a strong emotional and sentimental attachment to him. I fought to keep him alive like anyone would do to something they had a strong sentimental attachment to. But i realized all I was doing was delaying the inevitable and keeping him in pain. Once i made the choice to put him down, I cried like a fire hose expelling water at a fire. I was the fire and I didn’t want to be put out. Being put out meant that all the memories i made with Fat Cat would disappear with him. There will always be one thing that I will never forget about Fat Cat and that was how his fur felt like velvet sheets on a thousand cotton balls when he slept by my side at night.