Would I be able to make it? Darkness covers me while I'm sleeping Napo month stressing me while I'm eating will they accept the large words with no meaning Large words I hear but don't know how to define
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
Tell me I make the right choices buy always your watching Tell I have a good heart but I'm so rude tell me not to be so insecure but you judge everything I have what no one else have you say
but that's all lies I met a someone with anxiety like me I met a someone with the same insecurities I met a someone with an abusive boyfriend that made her break see that's the only difference mine..... wasn't like hers he did it physically mine was mentally Do you want to know where she ended up at? dead. dead... because you didn't want to listen you let your own blood go through so much so much pain so tell me
cause you were caught up in yourself Your own sister went through this and you still didn't learn I knew her since I was 5 and you mean to tell me if I can see it why can't you?
Tell me I make the right choices but, you're always watching
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
17.Shadow My shadow wears A dark cloak to cover my fears A mask to keep the looks out A smile to keep question out Her hair is like bouncy loose curls Curly as a twisting tornado My shadow is an unknown being an unknown being with insecurities an unknown being with fatal memories watch it go by as it walks by in a dark cloak
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
thoughts keep me up at night, On to my feet, another cup of coffee in me That's what I need, my eyes puffy, I can't see I'm too tired to function but too lost to sleep, I have dreams where my life can be devastating Another cup of coffee Another cop of caffeine Another dose of medication need the light I need the light
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
"Why don't you go outside for some fresh air?" I have a Febreze can that's all I need "well why don't you go outside to learn about the trees?" I have Nature books for that. "Well just go outside for it" No can do. I'm paranoid about the woods, I have this jumpiness about animals I'm not an outside person, I have books to learn about outside Fresh air I can always open a window.
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
so many things to write about but how do I chose? should, I do what's the purpose of a dog? or I could do what's it like to be a city kid? so many things to write about! how do I choose?
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
I lost my skill I lost it no longer can get it back it's getting too close I can't even remember what number I am at is it 20 is it 24 grammar no longer worry me it's like I lost my skills so many burdens so many excuses I don't want to leave no, just yet. YWS has so many talented people I will never match to them I will never be able to be like them I lost my skills points down to 7 reviews get me nowhere writer pads no longer apart of This is called Ar's madness more like a pile of darkness or too many excuses I lost my skills I lost my skills to write I lost my skills to keep track of what use to be in interested.
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
sleep is no longer slumber no longer somnolence no longer a trance that keeps me in deep thought Sleep is now an escape from life from teachers from parents from doctor's from reality that drains each aspect of energy that I try to build by my own way of somnolence
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
I am alive... but I feel dead sometimes invisible I go through life broken. I have no reason to be though I go on as a wondering soul when I'm really just a girl without a voice I am nothing special But I am me
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
My black coffee such bitter taste My soul is black just like my coffee I wonder if it tastes as bitter my soul is as dark as it an get such a bitter taste just like my black coffee Who the hell used all my creamer? such a bitter taste
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
I warned you I alarmed you 10 minutes passed late because of you you were never ready I warned you I told you several days ahead 20 minutes late because of you you was never ready to say goodbye
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
rush speed typoss I don't even need everyone on YWS is in such a hurry to get those last poem in those last typoss don't even care just get them in any topic as long that they are there "phew" done with a poem now for one more
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
dislike bugs because they bite dislike shadows because they follow you around like stalkers dislike frustrating teachers they always make homework confusing dislike the 30th because it comes so quickly dislike this poem it is really not a poem I love everything I dislike
I promise this type of pain only gets worse ~Esmeraya~ she/they
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