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homesick for a place i never left



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homesick for a place i never left

my 2021 napo thread


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past years



[center]table of contents

1. longing
2. named for the heavens
3. gender crisis at a gas station
4. young and just us
5. i became a visionary
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1. longing

can you feel homesick
for a place you never left?

you can still hear the crowing
of the neighborhood’s roosters
as the sun rises. there’s still puddles
littering gravel parking lot
that sits besides the fairgrounds.
the library always adorns
its windows with themed decorations
and the middle school always
congratulates its students
in pixelated purple
outside its asphalt gates.

when you stand in
the high school’s gym,
it still has the mustiness
of the old textbooks
locked away in
the storage closet.

but they’re tearing
down fifty years of history
and asbestos in the bathroom tiles
this summer.

you take a deep breath,
feeling longing settle heavy
in your chest,
and hope that your mind
will remember the sprawling halls
and mismatched lockers
that your body will someday
forget.
mage

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2. named for the heavens

your parents told you
to shine like the cosmos
you were named for,
but you can't see the glimmer
of their dying suns
past the red rain
falling from the ceiling.

you don't know how to turn
the space debris in your pocket
into a new beginning.
maybe that tourist from danerth
(who was too busy
flipping through his checks
to notice a skeleton of a boy
reaching into his coat)
would know how to leave
this planet's rotten core.

as you finger the stolen debris,
you wonder
why your parents
would want you to be
made of light and fire
when everyone on xelea knows
that the guards dispose of
the broken lights
that burn too fast and too bright.
mage

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3. gender crisis at a gas station

“boys will be boys” they say
but i’ve never seen a boy
who’s long hair made me question
my femininity.

i’ve never looked at a boy’s thick
denim jeans and old sneakers
and old town t-shirt and imagined
myself standing there instead.

i’ve never thought that someone
would someday see me
leaning against my 2008 subaru
and question what my face
looks like underneath my mask
because my posture
and curves of my body
scream female,
but my clothes hint at
a masculinity that i
finally managed
to possess.
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4. young and just us

“eternalize. idolize. commercialize.”

we’re not cute commodities
to be sold for a profit.
we’re young and just us.
we’re Xs among men.
we’re what society didn’t want
until they could stick a price tag
onto our adventures.
we’re the revolution
that burns in spiral dna.
we’re the mutants and metas.
we’re the rogues and freaks.

we don’t follow your rules.
you can’t rewrite our stories
and tie us to the box office.
we’re freedom and adrenaline
and the rushing of the wind
as we dart into alleyways
and listen to the police sirens
as we hide in the darkness
and perch above the rooftops.
mage

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Charm says...



Hey Mage! I'm really enjoying your NaPo thread! I love the imagery in "longing". I can totally picture the setting and it reminds me of my high school. I am obsessed with "gender crisis at a gas station". I think it's just so well done. The descriptions, the voice, the way the story unfolds. It's just really, really solid.
  





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Thanks, @Charm! longing was the poem that inspired me to rename this thread to its current name, so I'm glad the imagery really stuck out to you. And gender crisis at a gas station was is definitely one of the most unique poems I've ever written, so I'm really happy you liked that one, too!

Thanks for commenting.
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5. i became a visionary

standing in the shower
with the water
pounding on my skin,
i realized i had become
a visionary.

castles sprawled before
my closed eyes.
i could see the roughness
on the corners of each stone block.
i could follow
the neverending spiral
of forgotten passages
into the dark dungeons down below
and feel a chill
as a cold wind
blew through
a broken window.

i could stand in the streets
and listen to the chatter
of the elves selling
their wares as a group of
armor-clad guards
bumped into my shoulders
on the way to their
next shift.

i could feel the soft earth
underneath bare toes
and hear the humming of
the crickets as lightning bugs
swarmed the twilight
around me.
i could dance underneath
the moonlight and towering oak trees
and feel the forest swing with me, too.

and when i opened my eyes
and gripped the wet, metal faucet
in my wrinkled hands,
the forests and kingdoms and towns
were just as real
as the water dripping off
the hair plastered to my forehead.
mage

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Hijinks says...



Mage!!! gahh you have some awesome poems in your thread so far <33 I love how you're able to establish such a strong sense of voice and then keep it consistent through so many poems, it links them together really beautifully c:

I just adore the imagery in your latest one, it's so vivid and uses so many senses ^^ the second stanza is my favourite I think - especially "i could follow the neverending spiral / of forgotten passages / into the dark dungeons down below" - but honestly they're all awesome :)

also young and just us is so intense and almost melodramatic? in the absolute best way possible :D Your use of short snappy sentences is really effective in this one!

Keep up the wonderful poeting Mage! <3
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I have no idea how I never saw your comment here, but thanks, @whatchamacallit! I'm really glad you enjoyed my poems. I was worried that my voice in my poems wasn't really consistent, so I'm glad that wasn't the case. c:

Also, it's great that young and just us came across as intense/melodramatic! That seems to be the vibes of found family superhero groups, so I really wanted to convey that. (I was especially inspired by SJ Whitby's Cute Mutants book series!)
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[There was a poem here, once, but it's been taken down to be submitted to my college's literary magazine! It might be posted again someday, but hopefully it'll be in the literary magazine instead.]
mage

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