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Tue Apr 07, 2020 10:27 pm
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Day 7 - messages from another realm

This morning I felt my heartbeat in my fingertips
as I felt a cold gust of air against my pale legs
in a room with no air-conditioning.

And while I knew deep down in my heart
that there is no scientific evidence that would prove this,
something about it made me feel that you were there,
even if it was only to give me a quick hello.
And I love the thought of being with you,
or maybe it's the thought of not being so alone.


  





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Wed Apr 08, 2020 2:16 pm
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I remember learning when I was younger that seven was a magical number, so it seems fitting that your seventh poem is about something as magical as ghosts. It has a tone to it that I can't quite describe, but definitely love. I especially like how you write about ghosts in an almost cute way. Instead of them being a threat - as people often portray them - you portrayed the ghost of your poem like a friend.
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Day 8 - late-night texts on fear and happiness

Tonight was the first time
in 1 month and 24 days
that I committed a crime.

No, not a crime in the traditional sense-
Tonight you told me you loved me
and I had to leave you on seen
in the name of self-defense.

Here’s the thing about being told
that I’m the cause of your happiness,
the thing about being told
that I’m your ray of sunshine
and a dream you don’t want to let go of:

You could give me an entire disquisition of your admiration,
telling me how you think of me when you look at the stars,
writing songs about me on your nostalgia-filled guitar.

But your goal shouldn’t be to make me fall for you
if you have no intentions on catching me.


Spoiler! :
I did a lot of crying last night/this morning, and out of all of it came this poem. It was hard to write, but I wanted a way to get some of my feelings out instead of bottling them up. Things are hard right now but I know I need to have faith that things are going to get better sooner rather than later.

@Jaybird Thank you so much! The ghost in the poem was actually based off of a late friend of mine, so I'm glad I was able to convey that feeling in my writing. I think it's awesome I was able to have my seventh poem connect to
And I love the thought of being with you,
or maybe it's the thought of not being so alone.


  





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Thu Apr 09, 2020 8:27 pm
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Poetry is always a good way to vent your feelings, and I think your latest poem really does convey that. I loved the contrast in those last lines.

And I'm sorry about the loss of your friend. <3
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Fri Apr 10, 2020 1:13 am
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Day 9 - painkillers and poems

Friday night risks led to Saturday morning hangovers,
some in the form of headaches
and others in the form of emotional pain.
She wore her heart out on her sleeve
when she should’ve had it hidden away.

But isn’t it, she thought,
better to have love and lost
than never to have loved at all?



Spoiler! :
@Jaybird Agreed, I've found that doing NaPo this month has been a way for me to really spend some more time reflecting on my feelings and having the chance to vent when I normally wouldn't. Also thank you, it's been a while since she passed so thinking about her usually puts me in a happier place instead of somewhere sad.
And I love the thought of being with you,
or maybe it's the thought of not being so alone.


  





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Fri Apr 10, 2020 2:57 pm
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You're welcome. <3

I really love your latest poem, by the way. I feel like I'm usually open with my emotions, so I can definitely relate to the speaker of the poem. I also really love how the first stanza is more objective, while the second stanza focuses more on the thoughts that the speaker has.
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Sat Apr 11, 2020 12:24 am
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Day 10 - an angel in disguise

Sugar didn’t taste as sweet
and the songs of birds weren’t as graceful
before I had met her,
the epitome of all things beautiful
and all things ethereal.

Her golden honey eyes, forever ingrained in my memory,
commanded power and attention;
they could feed my soul for centuries,
no need for food or pension.

I heard of her departure on a late summer night,
and I felt my heart break in two.
I swear the rain lasted for at least a whole week after,
for she was the one who gave all the world its light.


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@Jaybird Thank you! I thought it would be interesting to try creating that contrast between the first and second stanzas, one of objective facts versus feelings.
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Sat Apr 11, 2020 12:39 am
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I'm really sorry I haven't been reading much poems. sksksk. But I promise to be more active from now on!

Ok so I love this last one! Your imagery showed how much the person admires her (esp. the second stanza). I can really empathize with what you read because I've recently liked someone who couldn't reciprocate my feelings. :(
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Day 11 - clogged shower drains and unconditional love

I stand still in the freezing shower water,
my goosebump-saturated skin turning pruney,
fully exposed and yet still hidden underneath layers upon layers
of unease and insecurity,
and I begin to wonder how long it’s been
since I’ve truly loved myself.

You see,
I want to give myself that unconditional love,
the kind of unqualified love my bones ache for
and doesn’t feel like a chore.

It’s 12:31 in the morning
and my blue hair clogs the shower drain;
my attempts to clear my brain
were all in vain.


Spoiler! :
@Katteex No worries! And thank you - I honestly really liked the imagery I was able to create with this poem and I'm glad you loved it :) I'm sorry about your situation though, I've definitely been through the whole experience (multiple times) of liking someone who doesn't feel the same way.
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or maybe it's the thought of not being so alone.


  





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The emotion and imagery in poem 11 is really vivid - I love the pairing of themes too of clogged shower drains and self-love. I also thought these lines in poem 8 were very hard-hitting,

But your goal shouldn’t be to make me fall for you
if you have no intentions on catching me.


Just - yep!! Your poetic voice sounds comes across as very honest - and I like how you're covering a range of emotions with your poetry too! Thanks for sharing these mckaylaam! <3
but i still don't think i can ever love someone
who doesn't understand that teal
is a different color than dark cyan.

my capitalization choices
are intentional


  





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I really relate to your last poem. Now that I'm home all day and have more time to myself, I've been trying my best to treat my body and mind right. But it's difficult doing it in a way that doesn't feel forced, even if I do like who I am as a person.

I really love the imagery in this stanza:

It’s 12:31 in the morning
and my blue hair clogs the shower drain;
my attempts to clear my brain
were all in vain.
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Mon Apr 13, 2020 3:55 am
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Day 12 - if the weekdays were people i knew

Monday -
you are a rude awakening
but also a fresh start;
a chance to pick up the pieces
and fix what fell apart.

Tuesday -
you are far more realistic than Monday,
who is always an overachiever;
time-management is your forte
but you lack the confidence to be on Broadway.

Wednesday -
you are as wacky as they come
and sometimes let over-exhaustion overpower you;
do not forget to be strong
and remember to give your homework some review.

Thursday -
always being compared to Friday,
but nonetheless you bring your own joys;
sometimes you think that you often get overlooked
but you are anything but background noise.

Friday -
you are the epitome of working hard
and playing harder;
the definition of a good time
and Saturday’s best partner in crime.

Saturday -
you laugh at responsibility
and are almost always the life of the party;
your encouragement starts to make people undrape
so make sure you take the time to erase the videotape.

Sunday -
you are what it means to be a mother,
always left to pick up after the others;
you are known to cure all the headaches
and make the best fluffy pancakes.


Spoiler! :
I know this doesn't quiteeee exactly fit with my theme, but I suppose it does at the same time because this really was what I was thinking about last night as I was trying to fall asleep haha.



@alliyah Thank you so much! Poems 8 and 11 are some of my favorites this month so far because of some of the imagery and hard-hitting lines. I definitely came into this month thinking I'd stick with only one type of emotion, but like you said I've covered a range of them which I think is pretty neat!

@Jaybird I 100% relate to you on wanting to spend more time on treating my mind and body right, I think it's important and something we should definitely all do. It can feel unnatural though sometimes, especially because I've grown used to not treating them right. Thanks for commenting though, I appreciate the feedback :)
And I love the thought of being with you,
or maybe it's the thought of not being so alone.


  





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Day 13 - another love poem

Sometimes it feels like love was never meant for me.

I don’t say this to get sympathy,
I say this because I’ve seen all the movies,
read all of the books,
and glanced at all of the magazines -
they tell me love is for the conventionally pretty.

Love is for the girls who win prom queen at seventeen,
not for the hopeless romantics who sit behind a computer screen,
writing silly little poems about being nineteen
and simultaneously learning how to draw tetrafluoroethylene.


Spoiler! :
Last stanza was inspired by my experiences with organic chemistry ahaha
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I really love Day 11 - "clogged shower drains and unconditional love". Showers are really, really weird places - it's a lot of the time a place for a lot of introspection and insecurity, and I think you captured that really well.
“Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant filled with odd little waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don't always like.”

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Day 14 - reasons why you should date a poet

i.
They will use the most descriptive metaphors
and the most beautiful similes
when they are asked to describe you,
because you and only you
are worthy of those words.

ii.
There will, of course, come those days
when all they want to do is hide,
shut themselves away from the world,
but that’s okay;
It gives them time to think.
And time to write.

iii.
They know how to choose their words carefully,
with such precision and delicacy,
it’s almost like they constantly rehearse what they are going to say.
Be prepared to feel like you’re being outshined
by their angelic vows on your wedding day.

iv.
You never have to worry about whether or not they truly love you
(trust me, they do)
because if they didn’t,
they wouldn’t waste their energy writing about you
all the freaking time.

v.
At first, they might seem a little bit shy,
but give them liquid encouragement
(try some Bordeaux)
and they will blossom and start ranting about Poe
and invite everyone to their next slam poetry show,
and they’ll make it seem like they were saving all of this for you.
They just want to impress you.


Spoiler! :
@EternalRain I definitely agree with you on showers being a place for introspection and insecurity! I'm glad I was able to capture that feeling in my writing, thank you :)
And I love the thought of being with you,
or maybe it's the thought of not being so alone.


  








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