Young Writers Society

1. father forgive me, for you know that i am always sinning
2. there are things sadder than you and i. some people do not even touch.
3. killing bill
4. nobody looks like what they really are
5. cold nights in an empty bed
6. excuses
7. untitled garbage
8. go get that get right, mama
9. man vs wild vs good vs evil
10. no one mourns a nameless boy
11. attention
12. i know this with certainty, i will be the end of me
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i gather my tears
in my palms, cradle oceans
just so i can drown

my devils have taken dominance over me

sent me sprawling from the tree

to lay upon a muddy bank

and call your name

ask for a change in my wretched soul

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for i fear i've fallen too far for forgiveness

like paradise is a bird's nest

and i'm clawing at the branches from below

bloated with pride and far too bold

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raging until the sun dips into the sea

and everything becomes as black and blue as me

fighting off the worst of my shame

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but now divine's too high for me to reach

you haven't even offered up your wings

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and, yet, i love you still

anger wells inside,
bubbling hot, angry in the hollow
of my throat. i fear
it will quench if i swallow

so i let it corrode.
let it burn away everything
i will not say, instead
my blade will speak for me

i keep idealization tucked in
my hollow, cavernous chest
wrapped in brittle bone
and gristle

i wonder
when i will cave in
spilling truth onto my face
i know, one day, i will break my vows

i know, one day, i will end it all

i hold my hands
too close to the heater
it burns
but i am more afraid of shivering

i almost forgot
to post today. forgive me,
i am so tired