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Ari's Madness



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Sun Apr 11, 2021 5:34 pm
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1.Life changes
2.Unanswered
3.Without any hint
4.I wish I was more like you
5.Envy/Jealousy
6.Fadeaway
7.Stars
8. I'm not the same
9.first attempt at a sonnet
10. Short Haku
11.Blue
12.Life and death
13.Crave
14.Large words(what I hear)
15.hope
16.I have what no one else have
17.shadow
18.deep thought
19.Raiment
20.Outside
21.so many things
22.I lost my skill
23.Sleep
24.Last poem
I am me
35.]]
25.Black coffee
26.Never ready
27.rush
28.bleak heart
29.dislike
30.Liam
31.mental health
32.One last hope
33.time is precious
34.the taste of evil
35.Thunder and lighting
36.why is life so ephemeral?
37.Brokenheartsari
38.unknown
39.dark pain
40.A letter for my sister
41.everlasting fire
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I promise this type of pain only gets worse
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Sun Apr 11, 2021 5:41 pm
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2. Unanswerd

Unanswered

The same question

I ask myself

every day

I wonder

was it meant to be

was I suppose to be this way?

was I suppose to leave

so many lost

souls

was I supposed to join?

why, me

The same question

I ask myself

Why didn't I depart this life
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
~Esmeraya~

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Sun Apr 11, 2021 6:05 pm
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1.Life changes

I know the truth is hard to digest
Trying to fix my damage
with doctor's prescriptions
inhale, exhale
But it feels like I'm not breathing
stay up late nights
still in pain.
my mind decays,
as I'm trying to make a change

Sunsets, I'm still regretting
everything
What's new?
I'm not the same,
what's next, I'm to blame
Life changes
If life can change,
why can't I?
Why do I have to stay the same?
You sure don't
You are a different person every day
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Sun Apr 11, 2021 6:11 pm
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3.Without any hint

Thought that you would mind,
but you had different plans
I was broken by design
I left all of my friends
I wish that I was fine
But the thoughts,
they never end
It is never summertime,
winter pulls me in

I feel so lost, and
I feel so down
Pain doesn't stop
unless your face is on the ground
Sometimes, I wish I could
just drop and make myself drown
But, can't drown what's already
drowning.

I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
I left you outside
in the cold
Unknown
I think I'm alright now

You took over my life
once you saw I was
weak
You left without care
without a hint of what's
going to happen
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
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Mon Apr 12, 2021 4:49 am
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4. I wish i was more like you

Always on your own
You never gave up
I wish I was more like you
You moved forward
I'm stuck in reverse
I love what you are doing
You finally proved
what others said was wrong
You never listened to them
I wish I was more like you.

You kept your head up
Never looking back
You kept me on track
You stayed strong.
Always moving on
that's what happened
to us.
you moved on
I wish I was more like you

Even when I didn't belong
you made me feel like it
You pushed me to my best
You were a lot stronger
then I can ever be
I wish I was more like you.

To die with no regrets
Live with every breath
Your message started to spread
I have so many dreams now
You moved forward
I'm still stuck in reverse
You were able to move on
I'm still clinging on to
your smile,
your touch,
your laugh,
and your words.

I'm sorry I wasn't able to move on
just know that I'm still here for you
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
~Esmeraya~

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Tue Apr 13, 2021 1:29 pm
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5. Envy/jealousy


Envy/jealousy
are no fun
both make me insane
tantalizing
me
to the breaking point

Envy requires two
One has it
the other wants it
Envy is no fun
makes me insane
tantalizing me
to take


Jealousy requires three
it's very unpleasant
it is one we never admit too
one we don't even realize
Jealousy is no fun
makes me feel sick
tantalizing me

We feel envy
about something you don't have but want,
but you feel jealousy over something you already have
but are afraid of losing it
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
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Wed Apr 14, 2021 3:46 pm
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6.Fade away


No pain
when my mind fade
Broken hearts,
they all feel the same
pull me apart
let me fade away.
Take me away
you were my good friend,
I saved you before
But you ran away
from the pain
I stayed
No pain
when my mind fades
Broken Hearts,
they all feel the same
I'm letting it fade
away
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
~Esmeraya~

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Thu Apr 15, 2021 1:04 pm
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7.Stars

alone
no one there
darkness
holding my breath
watching every step
my heart has been
cut open
showing every
memory,
like show and tell
No one here
but the stars
that I once believed in
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Thu Apr 15, 2021 1:50 pm
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8.i'm not the same

I feel the same
But I don't dress the same
I was soft
now i'm edgy
I use to listen to pop
But, my new playlist is all about metal
I feel the same
I don't look the same
I don't dress the same
I don't do the same
but I feel the same
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
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Thu Apr 15, 2021 1:56 pm
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9.first attempt to a sonnet

[i]From this vile world with vilest worms to dwell:
To any sensual feast with thee alone:
And dumb presagers of my speaking,
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heavens gate;

Thy adverse party is thy advocate,
Which have no correspondence with true sight;
Beyond all date, even to eternity:
For beauty pattern to succeeding men.

To witness duty, not to show my wit:
To let base clouds overtake me in my way,
To make him seem, long hence, as he shows now.
So thy great gift, upon misprision growing,

Consumed with that which it was nourished by.
For shame deny that thou bearest love to any,/i]
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Thu Apr 15, 2021 2:16 pm
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10.Short haiku

oil flavor,
How much under of it slip?
The nestis black-and-white.
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
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Thu Apr 15, 2021 2:30 pm
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[i]11.Blue/i]

All humming over the ground
We summon desirous hands beneath the grave
Crazy! The fun is going
Dark and quaking beneath the fire
We confound comely sounds among the fog
Repent! The passion felt good
So blue beside the bullshit
I find electric disasters beneath the shadows
We Reach! The sin is hard
trusting intangible
on the edge of the world
so many roads to choose from
With what hopes
my father
miss his chance
taking a chance
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
~Esmeraya~

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12.Life and death


Hello
Are there people out there?
I need help
I'm lost
I'm confused
I can't tell the difference
between,
Life and death
Both are equally
Painful–
One haunts me,
while the other is a nightmare
I need help
I think my mind is losing it
I am out of energy
Mentally and physically
Why did you turn away?
as I crumbled
to the cold ground
Sucked the air out of me
I'm tumbling
I'm shaking
as the earth buries me
alive
Death Haunts me
while life Is a nightmare
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
~Esmeraya~

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13.Carve

Carve not false to make
You as the best is such wealth
Time and child do love

Remember'd such thorns a virtual
This verse, and wherefore says

In for a motley
This praise. That makes summer's breath
Their own, even by.
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
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14.Raiment


And for those, an exception, because thou.
Therefore to whom, I love vulgar paper
To the base, clouds do with the humble salve can
I envy, why then give thee behold desert,

Wooing his from this thou keeps me first the seemly
Raiment of perfect. Let me not so you
Press my love is abus'd. Time, sweet gave eyes,
After that which longer than enough that

Tongue thy eternal cold, being mine be
Well of the Carcanet. Now, do the humble
As thou, thine own thoughts is best to fair that
Ink my love, and buds of mouthed there; for

A story, when beauty herself of projects,
Having thee to dote. When most evident.
I promise this type of pain only gets worse
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