Hello everyone I'm glad to have found this site. For a long while I considered writing and art something you do solitary, in order to hone your unique vision blah blah blah.... But I just couldn't take the boredom anymore :/ I was starting to stagnate. I need fresh words and fresh ideas, and the anonymity that comes with posting something online for review.
My best friend writes, but I feel so shy showing her my stuff because it all sounds corny as soon as someone else's hands touch the paper. I know this isn't an uncommon feeling, but it's that fear of rejection (or moreso, of sugarcoating...) that has held me back more than anything else. I've always loved to read, and I think that this is where my desire to write comes from. I often find myself reading something and thinking, "No!! No, this is what should have happened!" and I'm left yearning for something I can't quite name.
I'm one of those people who likes to imagine stories for the strangers and places I see. Anything can be inspiring, and I get swept up in my daydreams. Putting pen to paper or fingers to keys is what I never get around to... When a story idea hits me, my mind rushes through it at hyper speed and I feel as if I already know/have experienced the story and don't need to write it down. If I had more hunger for fame and money I think I would have gotten something done by now lol, but I want to write for the sake of a story, for myself. I know I'm not alone here. As private and self-contained as I consider myself to be, I want to leave something behind.
My favorite story is Wuthering Heights. I could write a whole post about that alone (which I will, lol, when I find the right place and the time to do it), but in a nutshell, I've never seen a more passionate love. This story will have me forever. After reading that I started researching Emily Bronte and came across her poetry. We are so much alike that it's uncanny! Wuthering Heights is a book that makes me grateful to be alive, to be in the present moment where this book exists for me to read. I'm always longing for an idealized exotic past (think, Midnight in Paris), BUT if I were offered a chance to time travel I would refuse it for Wuthering Heights alone. Think of me what you will, but I'm letting my freak flag fly on this one!
My favorite authors are:
Carlos Ruiz Zafon
Charles Baudelaire
Edgar Allen Poe
Emily Bronte
Charles Dickens
Ki no Tsurayuki
Ono no Komachi
Yoshimoto Banana
Rick Yancey
Some non-literary interests of mine are:
Kimono: I research, collect, and wear kimono. I'm not Japanese, and I get a lot of weird looks, but whatever. Life is too short to waste complying with the ideals of others! My kimono fashion sense is much better than my 'youfuku' fashion sense... They're the nicest garments I own. (This isn't a brag so much as an admission :/ ) I'm heavily inspired by kabuki costumes and the Edo period fashion in general.
Geisha/Geiko: My interest in geisha stems from my interest in kimono and Japanese history. I know it can be a touchy subject because of the conflicting and confusing ideas about prostitution, so I don't want to start babbling about this. They still exist today in much smaller numbers, but they are as beautiful and charming as ever. It's hard for me to pin down what exactly appeals to me about them... It's that paragon of feminity, the dedication to art, the eroticism and exoticism, the anachronism, everything. I'd like to learn some Japanese dance and singing, but alas -- I live in the boondocks of Massachusetts.
Japanese and French Culture: I study the languages, the histories, the customs, the literature, everything I can to mentally immerse myself in these places. When I have money, my body will follow lol. My love of French culture is owed to my high school French teacher. It was her passion for French that opened my heart to love learning a language. Basically, anyone speaking about something from a place of true passion and devotion can make me fall in love with anything lol. I love to listen to people talk about what they love, whether it be biochemistry, beekeeping, books, French, whatever. Always be in love. (Or in Baudelaire's words: Always be drunk.) My interest in Japanese culture started with the poetry. I liked reading the varying English translations, and every book will tell you that it's a language whose subtlety just can't properly be captured or conveyed as beautifully in English. I had to experience it for myself, so I began studying the language. And from there, my great love was born.
Zdiszlaw Beksinski: If you don't know who he is, Google him. Nothing need be said.
I'm running out of time here at work-- I've got a bus to Boston to catch! I'll be around I look forward to getting to know you guys.
~蛍葉
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