David's Poem

I don't know why

You chose me

It was early July, 1993.

I knew my life would never be the same

Now it would become filled with cowardice, harship, fear and shame

That day my soul rejected the person I became. 



At one point I actually began to hate you

Because I wasn't ready for anything new.



                                           • • • 

Danny and I met when we were ten;

We were childhood sweethearts back then.

But I dated different guys, nice ones like Ben.

In the end though, I always wanted your father again. 



Then one night I didn't care anymore;

A miracle was to happen, I knew and I swore.



Danny didn't care for me

Still I gave him all my chastity

With no idea who or what he would truly be.

                                         • • •



I remember feeling you in my womb,

You were encased for 9 months like a mummy in a tomb.

I loved the sense of pride

I could not wait to be his bride.



Throughout those 9 months

That bastard promised me

Everything; he promised we would be

A happy, simple family.



Yet he was not there when I gave life to his son.

That day, I was alone.

There was no one.

And I broke down because the hardest part of my life had begun.



                                • • • 

Danny left his newborn son and I with no home and no money.

A meal a day was not a guarantee. 

I needed a job and I need one fast

Or else the life of my newborn son would not last.



My parents thought I had run away

Thank God when I returned I was allowed to stay.

I think they wanted to save your life

Or keep a poor 16 year old from a lot of strife.

Whatever the reason, God bless

They saved me from a terrible mess.



They helped me raise you;

I went to school.

You remained my precious jewel.

I remember when you were 5 you said angels were around us,

And I knew that for you, my little angel, the future was glorious.



You're so big now --

Almost 16.

So much has happened in between.

Finally though, our lives are serene.



Now as I look back on your baby pictures of times long gone,

I remember that blue eyed laugh and that black haired grin

Waking me up,

Crawling into my bed at the crack of dawn.

If there is anything that kept us okay,

It's that we loved each other in the right way.

We knew when to let each other go

And when to stop and say no.



I named you David

Because David means beloved

And I knew that all those years ago;

You would be shoved

Into a shadow by your father.



So I named you David

To show that I would eternally love you;

Cherishing your precious heart

Which, to this day beats in sync with mine-- 

Because I was the only one who never stopped loving you.

You are my Eternity, David, Beloved.

Mama loves you.



♥ 









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