Why does life matter?
Staring at my ceiling has become a constant routine throughout my life. Always memorizing the patterns, mostly because they are never the same. I think of my ceiling like I think of my own life, a never ending pattern of nothingness; yet it is never the same. It always changes regardless of what I do. A slight tapping at my door turns my attention away from my memory game.
Sliding up silently I feel the dull pressure on my muscles. My arm reflexively reaches for the slender dagger laying on my dresser. Slipping it up my sleeve I stride the short distance to my door.
"What do you want?" I hear my voice but don't even recognize, what should be, a familiar monotonous tone.
Instead of answering a paper is extended to me. I hesitate before taking it from the strange man standing in my door frame. I'm familiar with these sorts of men, they are all the same really. Pathetic impudent fools with only one desire, money. They want the death of their adversaries in order to gain further wealth; and I just happen to be the fool to carry out their desires. Don't get me wrong, I care nothing for the people they wish death upon, but I find their reasoning sick. You might ask me, "If you find it sick, then why do you do it?" The answer to that is, one I get money for it. The other reason is that the world is a cruel place, nothing is fair here. If things were fair I wouldn't be here now. I wouldn't be taking orders from this piece of crap standing in front of me.
I learned young though that life isn't fair, you have to deal with the cards that you have been dealt. My newest card is a girl by the name of, Rachel.
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Rachel Black, a young girl, only twenty-five to be exact. Long red hair wrapping in curls down her back, and shiny amber eyes. Tall and slender just like most women of her stature. Her movements flow in a continual pattern, her heels clicking with every movement. She walks like a businesswoman.
Watching is the hard part of my job. I can't lie to you and tell you that I have any emotion towards the girl. To me her existence means nothing. My opinion mimics that of most of the world. If she died how many people would care? Family and friends of course, that is if she has any. Her type doesn't fit that of one to have many friends, maybe a lover; but not an open relationship, just a quite one. He might care, but besides that not many will shed a tear for this woman. I will just be doing the world a favor by taking away something to envy.
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Staring at a ceiling constantly could drive anyone mad, even me, but it's worse to think. "Think about what?" you say. Maybe it's their faces, maybe it's the terror written all over them. Perhaps it's thinking about the process of, "getting rid of them." I don't think that's it though. I think it's the fact that I don't care that scares me. Their screams and cries mean nothing to me. Why should they? Life isn't fair, and no-one plays by the rules. If they played by the rules I wouldn't be living in this torturous hellhole. I would be dead with the rest of them. "Who might I be with?" you ask. I cannot answer that I'm afraid. I'm not sure I remember anymore. All the faces, they blur together. Maybe if I could remember their faces, just their faces, I could tell you. Oh well, back to work.
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