I watch her from the shadows. As a guardian? Or a fan? I know she sees me, she always could. She just never asked me to leave like the others.
Maybe she understands what it’s like to gaze at her while she dreams with eyes half-open and happiness written on her face as a gentle smile. I can’t help but sigh whenever her eyes flutter as she wakes, both in displeasure and awe.
When she dreams, she’s beautiful. An entirely different person than the role she plays in the surface world. She’s not the girl clinking champagne glasses, hiding classics in the bottom of her book bag, doing whatever it takes for acceptance.
If I was in her place, I might be pressured to do the same. She probably thinks losing herself is better than being lonesome. Still, she keeps bits of herself tucked in her dreams.
Today, she dreams about a world covered in glitter. Bright pink shades and blue hues paint the roads and blanket the hills. In the center, she laughs, throwing handfuls of the shiny flecks in the air.
Suddenly, a look of determination inches on her brow. She begins to shovel through the pile of glitter that climbs to her thighs. She uncovers a hand, and then lips. Carefully, she presses her lips against the one hidden by the glitter. She takes his hand and starts kissing him.
I feel my stomach tie into a series of knots, tugging on my insides. I tell myself I don’t want to watch, but I can’t look away.
I’ve never seen this expression she wears; a combination of exhilaration and unquenchable longing. Could this be love?
And for the first time, I feel my body harden into a rock, feel anger and hurt bursting from my chest. I feel my heart tear.
It doesn’t matter, though. I am only an admirer to her.
Minutes later, they stop, but she doesn’t let go of his hand. With the other, she wipes the glitter masking his face. My heart stops.
Today, she dreams about me.
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