Lost Lovers….

I walked in to the living room, tears running down my face. I had just broken up with my boyfriend. I didn't want to, but he was moving away, and I just can't deal with a long distance relationship. I still loved him so much, and I know he still loved me. When I left his appartment, it wasn't good, he was crying just as much as me. It hurt so bad to leave him, but I just had to.

I sat down on the couch, and turned the TV on. It was on news, I usually ignored it but this time I paid close attention.

The blonde anchor woman sat down at her desk. She shuffled some papers trying to look professional. “Good evening, this is Vicky Katton and my co-anchor Marvin Triston”

“Good evening Vicky.”

“You too. Now to get to our top story.”

“A sixteen year old male. He was found in his room wrists slit and a note in his hands, His name was Alex Delmont.”

That’s all I needed to know. He killed himself. And it was all my fault. He took the break up harder than I thought. I began to cry again this time uncontrollable. I wandered into the kitchen looking for tissues to wipe away my tears.

I found the tissues and dried my eyes. As I did I noticed on my table a small teddy bear. I picked it up. It was the one Alex had won for me at a fair. I loved it so much, it was always in my bed. I wondered why it was here.

I held it up.

“Alex I love you so much. I’ll think about you all the time.” I said with a sigh.

I gave the bear a hug, and took it back into my bedroom. As I sat down on my bed. I heard a voice whisper in my ear.

“I love you too, don’t worry about me Ginger it wasn’t your fault, I know why you broke up with me, I just couldn't stand the thought of living with out you.”

The tears started up again.

“Alex I love you”

“I know you do” He rubs his hand across my cheek.

I couldn’t see it but I could feel it.

“Alex don't leave me I need you!"

“I have to, I’ll see you again someday. You need to move on, but I will always love you.”

“I love you too.”

With that he was gone. I gave the bear another hug, and sat on bed for a long time just thinking.

Had this been all a dream? Was I going crazy from grief?" I thought.

The one thing I did know for certain, was I would never love anyone as much as I loved Alex. He had been my one and only, and his parents decided to take him away from me. It's their fault he's gone, their fault I'll be alone. That night I cried myself to sleep. I drempt of Me and Alex together. I didn't want to wake up.

About a week later I was still thinking about him, still hurting. My grades in school had began to drop. I couldn't stand to live my life without Alex. No one knew how I felt, not even my parents, they thought I had just gotten over him. But that would never be. One night when i was hurting so badly it was hard to breath. My parents were out on a date, I was all alone, so I began to write a letter.

To my family and friends,

I love you very much, but I can't live anymore, it just hurts too much. I need Alex. This is a goodbye to all of you. Just remember I love you.

Ginger

I set the note on my parents bed and got into there closet and grabbed the gun that was on the top shelf.

"Alex, I'll be with you soon!" I said.

Then I put the gun up to my head and pulled the trigger. I only felt pain for a second or two. I saw a white light, and Alex standing there waiting for me. I ran towards him crying, smiling, and laughing. We hugged and kissed and cried together.

"Alex I couldn't wait, I needed you and missed you so much."

"I'm glad we're together again, but you shouldn't have killed yourself just for me"

We hugged and kissed some more, and knew we would be together forever.

The End